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Thomas Kelly - Friends Journal

Thomas Kelly - Friends Journal

Thomas Kelly

Thomas Kelly is the first of four activist Friends that I intend to write about in this column over the next several months—Friends whose spiritual experience and their testimony for us are shaped in a fundamental way by purposeful engagement with the world. I say "purposeful" because everyone’s spiritual life is shaped by the manifold experiences of work, human relationships, and the sheer business of organismal being, but it is useful sometimes to try to trace in someone’s spiritual expression the impact of their intentionally hurling themselves into specific actions.

Now, it may come as a surprise to find Thomas Kelly grouped with such energetic bodies as John Bellers and Lucretia Mott. This view of Kelly dawned on me only recently, as I revisited his writings and biography after a long period in which I thought of him hardly at all. In his devotional pieces, I heard accents that come from fierce joy, commitments maintained under testing, and many kinds of longing. The three sorts of world-engagement that seem most important in Kelly’s life were his concern for souls, his direct service in Germany and other places with AFSC, and his almost lifelong ambition to make a significant academic mark, especially in philosophy. All of these seem to have in common a longing to be something special, which is epitomized vividly in the famous incident, in which as a Haverford student he comes to visit Rufus Jones, and in the course of the conversation says, "I just want my life to be a miracle!" While Rufus’ personality and style might well have played midwife to expansive statements from many admiring students, the heat and intensity of that ambition are Kelly’s.

Concern for souls

Kelly was born to an active, devout, evangelical Quaker family in Ohio. From an early age he was surrounded by rhythms of worship, persons of magnetic spirituality, Bible and preaching, hymns, and community life. Like other future ministers, he "played preacher," and exhibited early a commanding yet winning personality, as well as an acute mind. After college, he went to Hartford Theological Seminary, and received both theological and philosophical training; his original goal was to enter missions. He worked as a supply pastor in a variety of local Protestant and Quaker churches. While he swerved from the path to pastoral ministry for which he seemed (to others) well suited, his sense of the urgent value of each human soul and his fascination with the vagaries of inward and outward life remained strong. As he grew spiritually, his "authentic" voice more and more reached towards soul-health, high aspiration, the need for abandonment to God, and the realization that joy was part of the promise. Whether he was writing or speaking about political events, relief work, or problems of daily life, he had from youth an acute awareness of the soul life in all, and God’s beckoning and workman-like love.

Direct service

During World War I, Kelly sought alternative service with the YMCA in England, and then worked with German prisoners of war. He took an active part in AFSC work between the World Wars, going twice to Germany, once for an extended period of time as part of the relief effort there. He was articulate about the need to work in practical ways to relieve physical, psychological, and spiritual suffering; and as his writings reveal, he understood clearly how these are interrelated.

Ambition and failure

After his alternative service, and a teaching position at Wilmington College, Kelly returned to Hartford for a doctorate in philosophy. There followed several years of teaching at Earlham, in Hawaii, at Wellesley College, and finally at Haverford. During this period, deciding that his main goal was to become an accomplished and productive academic philosopher, he determined to take a second doctorate in Philosophy at Harvard. In the face of a policy not to grant a doctorate to someone who already had a PhD, Kelly wrote an agonizingly revealing letter in which he insisted that in order for him to really do first rate work in philosophy, he must both be trained at Harvard (the premier school in the country, in his opinion), and take a degree. This was reluctantly allowed, and Kelly wrote a thesis that was published to good notices. When he came to defend his thesis, however, he blanked out and was unstrung. The Harvard faculty both failed him, and barred him from ever trying again. Kelly fell into a major psychological crisis (though Haverford was happy with him on the faculty in any case).

The outcome of his failure, and his encounter with ultimate questions of his values and commitments, was a relatively sudden and dramatic integration of his personality, and a sense of liberation. His intense religious life seems to have gained an added mystical depth, and his writings from this period to his death are full of light, conviction, joy, and the sweetness that comes of walking in the Light, but knowing firsthand the ocean of darkness and death.

In Reality of the Spiritual World he writes:

"When our souls are utterly swept through and overturned by God’s invading love . . . we find ourselves enmeshed with some people in amazing bonds of love and nearness and togetherness of soul, such as we never knew before. . . . Into this fellowship of souls at the center we simply emerge. No one is chosen to the fellowship. When we discover God we discover the fellowship. When we find ourselves in Christ we find we are also amazingly united with those others who are also in Christ.

. . . Theological differences are forgotten, and liberals and conservatives eagerly exchange experiences concerning the wonders of the life of devotion. [Yet] the last depths of conversation in the fellowship go beyond spoken words. People who know one another in God do not need to talk much. They know one another already. In the last depths of understanding, words cease and we sit in silence together, yet in perfect touch with one another, more bound into the common life by the silence than we ever were by words."

For further reading

The most famous of Kelly’s writings is A Testament of Devotion, which was pulled together by Douglas Steere and a few others within months of Kelly’s death. It has a good, brief biographical sketch, as well, though this leaves out some important elements, and bears the marks of haste and grief. Recently I have found The Eternal Now and Social Concern of particular value. However, I strongly urge you to read Reality of the Spiritual World, if you have not done so recently. There is a great breadth of vision in this pamphlet, which embraces contemplation and action, prayer and service. Thomas Merton’s famous quip that Quakers have produced no great mystics finds one of its best refutations in this piece. In the 1960s, Thomas’ son, Richard Kelly, compiled a further collection of essays and short pieces under the title The Eternal Promise. For biography, the best source is still Richard Kelly’s Thomas Kelly: A Biography, which, among other virtues, quotes extensively from Thomas’ correspondence. In addition, though, the reader will enjoy T. Canby Jones’ Pendle Hill pamphlet, Thomas Kelly as I Remember Him. T. Canby Jones was part of the "gang" of inspired young people who gathered with Thomas Kelly at Haverford in his last years for study and prayer, and to feel their way into lives of service and witness. The pamphlet is warm in its recollection of Kelly’s personality, but it is especially valuable for its interpretation of his teaching on prayer and spiritual experience.

[[Jerry R. Flora: Searching for an Adequate Life

Jerry R. Flora: Searching for an Adequate Life

SPIRITUALITY TODAY
Spring 1990, Vol.42 No. 1, pp.

Jerry R. Flora:
     Searching for an Adequate Life:
                       The Devotional Theology of Thomas R. Kelly
The mystical teaching of Quaker theologian Thomas Kelly continues to enrich and inspire a new generation of readers searching for a meaningful life in a world veering towards chaos.

Jerry R. Flora earned the doctorate in theology from Southern Baptist Theological Seminary and since 1972 has been Professor of New Testament Theology at Ashland (Ohio) Theological Seminary. Prior to that he was a parish minister in Ohio, Indiana, and Washington, D.C.

ON the morning of January 17, 1941, a college professor in eastern Pennsylvania exclaimed to his wife, "Today will be the greatest day of my life."(1) He had just written to the religion editor at Harper and Brothers, accepting an invitation to speak with him in New York about a small book ,on devotional practice. The firm of Harper was definitely interested in the kind of fresh material this writer could produce. That evening, while drying the dinner dishes, he slumped to the floor with a massive coronary arrest and died almost instantly.

The writer was Thomas Raymond Kelly, professor of philosophy at Haverford College in suburban Philadelphia, considered to be the elite among Quaker colleges of America. Kelly had taught there for nearly five years, succeeding D. Elton Trueblood when the latter became chaplain at Stanford University. Forty seven years old at the time of his unexpected death, Kelly was a seminary graduate and a philosopher of unusually broad preparation. He was also coming to be known as a devotional writer of considerable freshness and power.

Three months after Kelly's death, Douglas Steere, his colleague in the philosophy department, submitted to Harper and Brothers five of his friend's devotional essays prefaced by a biographical memoir. That slender volume, A Testament of Devotion, has remained in print since 1941 and has been acclaimed by thoughtful readers of varying theological persuasions.

Thomas Kelly belonged to a succession of American Quakers who were philosophers by profession. Rufus M. Jones (1863-1948) mentored Kelly throughout the years of his pilgrimage and outlived his protege. Elton Trueblood (b. 1900) edited one of the Friends' magazines which introduced Kelly's writings to the public. Twenty-five years later Trueblood commented, "The sense of excitement, when Thomas Kelly:s essays began to come to the editorial desk, is still vivid." (2) Douglas Steere (b. 1901), Rhodes scholar and faculty colleague, compiled the volume which became known as A Testament of Devotion. The purpose of this article is to recount the outlines of Kelly's life, describe the contents of his devotional theology, and offer a summary analysis of it.


A QUAKER YOUTH

Thomas Raymond Kelly was born in 1893, a child of the Quaker faith as it was found at that time in south-central Ohio. This rnidwestern variety of the Society of Friends had come under the influence of the evangelical revivals that characterized the nineteenth century in the American middle West. Even now, Friends in Ohio are often nearly indistinguishable from other low-church or free-church Protestants. Kelly, born into that environment, lost his father at the age of four, after which his mother moved the family to Wilmington, Ohio. Her intention was that by living there her children could have the advantage of higher education at Wilmington College, a small Quaker school in that town.

Young Kelly grew up with both a perfectionistic streak and a sense of the joy of living. He was remembered for his impishness, his practical jokes, his daredevil motorcycle riding, later his skills as carpenter and sheet-metal worker, and finally his warm, open laughter. One friend wrote of him, "He laughed with the rich hearty abandon of wind and sun upon the open prairie. I have never heard richer, heartier laughter than his" (TD 7)(3)At the same time his life was marked by what has been termed "a passionate and determined quest for adequacy" (TD 1) in both scholarship and Christian devotion.

SCHOLAR AND TEACHER

Always interested in science, Kelly graduated from Wilmington College in 1913 with a chemistry major. He went the next year to Haverford College for additional study, there falling under the spell of Rufus M. Jones, the distinguished professor of philosophy. With Jones came also exposure to the more mystical side of the Friends movement, preserved better on the eastern seaboard than in Ohio. 

That change of focus was accompanied by a never-ending interest in the Far East, which led him to Hartford Theological Seminary to prepare for missionary service

World War I erupted in Europe, and, in true Quaker fashion, Kelly volunteered for civilian service overseas. He spent a year in England, working first with the YMCA, then with German prisoners of war because of his knowledge of their language.

Returning to the States, he finished seminary and married Lael Macy, daughter of a New England Congregational manse. Their twenty-one years of marriage were marked by frequent moves for him to study or teach, nagging financial problems which followed on this, and numerous physical ailments, some of which were undoubtedly stress-related.(4)

After their marriage he returned to Wilmington College, where he taught for two years (1919-21), 

went back to Hartford, completing a doctorate in philosophy (1924), and was inducted into Phi Beta Kappa. 

Dr. and Mrs. Kelly then spent a year in Berlin, working with the American Friends Service Committee in the reconstruction following Germany's war defeat.

Upon their return to the United States, Kelly was unable to find a position on the east coast and was forced to become a professor at Earlham College, a Quaker school in Richmond, Indiana. By this time he had come to dislike the Midwest, feeling that it did not have the intellectual stimulus of the East, and he went through a period of rebellion against the thinking and spirituality of his evangelical Ohio origins. 

In 1930 Kelly returned to New England to begin a second doctorate in philosophy, this time at Harvard University. Through the early and mid-thirties he labored at that while teaching first at Wellesley College (1931-32) and then again at Earlham (1932-35)

This was the middle of the Great Depression, and Kelly's decision to return to Earlham was painful because it meant once more the Midwest that he had come to despise. Yet there were no other positions open to him until 1935 when he was able to move to the University of Hawaii to teach and to pursue advanced research in Eastern philosophies.

His long-awaited opportunity called in 1936, when Haverford College invited him to follow D. Elton Trueblood in a chair of philosophy. He brought to this new work not only his massive academic preparation, including the near-completed second doctorate at Harvard, but also his love for the eastern seaboard and all that it represented for him both intellectually and spiritually. 

In 1937 his dissertation was published, receiving very favorable reviews. Like the thesis for his first doctorate, it studied the thought of a scientist who turned philosopher -- a pilgrimage quite similar to that of Kelly himself. But the Harvard Ph.D. was not yet his, needing only the oral defense of the now-published dissertation.

BREAKDOWN AND BREAKTHROUGH

So in the autumn of 1937 Thomas Kelly traveled north to Cambridge to sit for his orals, and there he lived out the nightmare of every Ph.D. candidate: he lost his memory. Since his mid-twenties, Kelly, always an intense individual, had experienced occasional "woozy spells." as he called them. This sometimes occurred under great stress, as in 1924 at the defense of his first dissertation. The committee at Hartford had patiently worked with him, his confidence and recall returned, and he gave a brilliant defense of his research. But the Harvard faculty was not sympathetic when Kelly went blank in 1937 trying to defend the dissertation he had written for them. They not only failed him on the defense, they also informed him that he would never be allowed a second chance.

In the days that followed, friends offered what help they could but nothing seemed to avail. His son continues the story: 

"There is no exact record of what happened in the following weeks, but it is certain that sometime during the months of November or December, 1937, a change was wrought within the very foundation of his soul. He described it as being'shaken by the experience of Presence -- something that I did not seek, but that sought me ....' Stripped of his defenses and human self justification, he found, for the first time, a readiness to accept the outright gift of God's Love, and he responded with unlimited commitment to that leading.(5) His teaching colleague Douglas Steere, who spent uncounted hours walking Kelly through his grief, later wrote of his healing:

"He moved toward adequacy. A fissure in him seemed to close, cliffs caved in and filled up a chasm, and what was divided grew together within him. Science, scholarship, method remained good, but in a new setting" (TD 18). "...out of it seemed to come a whole new life orientation. What took place no one will ever know; but old walls caved in, the fierce academic ambition receded, and a new abandoned kind of fulfillment made its appearance."(6)

This life-changing experience showed through in two public lectures that Kelly prepared shortly afterward, lectures which he said wrote themselves. He then sailed for Germany in the summer of 1938, culminating three years of planning, in order to minister as he was able to the Friends in that country before Hitler closed it off from the rest of Europe. He came home, the last person off the ship, shaken by the suffering he had witnessed in Germany but buttressed by new experiences of divine love able to meet that agony. His friends recalled that for weeks afterward he said over and over, "I have been literally melted down by the love of God!" (TD 21).

Such first-hand acquaintance with reality, both human and divine, continued to be the trademark of his speaking and writing in the little more than two years which remained. Seventeen addresses and lectures appeared in the period following Kelly's failure until his sudden death in January, 1941. As people heard him speak and studied his writings, they detected a note of authenticity that was attractive and powerful. It was that note which led the religious books editor of Harper and Brothers to invite him to submit a manuscript for publication. Twenty-five years after A Testament of Devotion was posthumously published, his son Richard released Thomas Kelly: A Biography and The Eternal Promise, which contains the remainder of the essays and addresses.

JUDGMENT AND DOCTRINE

The worth of Thomas Kelly's legacy has been noted by such authors as D. Elton Trueblood (7) and Richard J. Foster. (8) Church historian E. Glenn Hinson of Southern Baptist Theological Seminary has, for many years, offered classes in devotional literature on his campus. In his opinion, "Thomas Kelly's A Testament of Devotion... is a contemporary classic... a wonderfully edifying collection of essays which, not surprisingly, my students in courses on devotional classics have repeatedly selected as their favorite."(9)

We move now to consider the devotional theology of Thomas R. Kelly.

Searching for an adequate life was the long-range goal of his short earthly existence. He began with the assumption of God's real being and activity, and moved ahead to assert that our great need is to experience God as active in the world at large and within human hearts particularly. God is more than nature, more than compassionate service, more than Scripture, and the claims of God must be upheld against all forms of mediocrity. This requires careful scholarship without rationalism and immediate experience without quietism.

The call to immediacy sounds again and again through his writings, no matter the period of his life in which they were composed. God is the Life, the Light, the Center of all things, and is to be sought within and experienced within. As Kelly described it, "...God Himself is active, is dynamic, is here, is brooding over us all, is prompting and instructing us within, in amazing immediacy. This is not something to believe, it is something to experience, in the solemn, sacred depths of our beings" (EP 90).

This historic Quaker note is heard in the words Kelly mailed off on the morning of his last day: 

"Deep within us all there is an amazing inner sanctuary of the soul, a holy place, a Divine Center, a speaking Voice, to which we may continuously return .... It is the Shekinah of the soul, the Presence in the midst .... And He is within us all" (TD 29).

Kelly has less to say about humanity and sin than about God and divine reality. As he sees it, the West has been mistaken in thinking that our problems are basically external and environmental. The real roots of human problems lie buried within, whence they manifest themselves in behavior that is distracted, fragmented, and therefore destructive. As individuals, "We are trying to be several selves at once, without all our selves being organized by a single, mastering Life within us" (TD 114). According to him, we might be diagnosed as spiritually schizophrenic. Each person possesses by nature a demonic element and also an unformed Christ within. The Church has been too quick to identify the demonic as true human nature while rejecting or forgetting the Christ within (EP 40f.).

Kelly holds that there are many seekers after truth and life in our day, at least as many as in the days of George Fox. And how is the search for God to be carried on? Kelly is clear in positing that the initiative in human salvation comes from God -- "God the initiator;" as he put it, "God the aggressor, God the seeker, God the stirrer into life, God the ground of our obedience, God the giver of the power to become children of God" (TD 52). This theme he reiterates several times in his essays (TD 29, 41, 51f., 97,124). It is important to note that, in keeping with the Quaker emphasis, he believes God does not initiate the application of salvation from outside human experience. Rather, the true Light that enlightens every one in the world is already within by virtue of their creation (cf. John 1:9):

Did you start the search for Him? He started you on the search for Him, and lovingly, anxiously, tenderly guides you to Himself. You knock on heaven's gate, because He has already been standing at the door and knocking within you, disquieting you and calling you to arise and seek your Father's house. It is as St. Augustine says: He was within, and we mistakenly sought Him without. It isn't a matter of believing in the Inner Light, it is a matter of yielding your lives to Him (EP 105; cf. 19f., 22, 59, 101, 115).
The claims of this initiating God are totalitarian, and the human response to them can be nothing less than "true decidedness of life orientation... thoroughly, wholly, in every department and without reserve" (EP 16). "He asks all, but He gives all" (TD 50). It is important for Kelly that Christian faith-commitment not be misunderstood as an emotional high or an ecstatic experience. For him the obedience of the will is central and crucial. "Let us be quite clear," he writes,
that mystical exaltation is not essential to religious dedication and to every occurrence of religious worship. Many a [person] professes to be without a shred of mystical elevation, yet is fundamentally a heaven-dedicated soul .... The crux of religious living lies in the will, not in transient and variable states. Where the will to will God's will is present, there is a child of God (EP 87f., quoted also in TD 24f.).

Like Saint Augustine one asks not for greater certainty of God but only for more steadfastness in Him (TD 57).

DISCIPLESHIP AND WORSHIP

The total life-dedication which issues in holy obedience will have the purity of God as its mastering passion. 

"I would plead for holy lives, such as arise out of fellowship with Him, lives not secular and boisterously worldly in backslapping camaraderie, in the effort to make religion appealing to the [person] who wants a little religion, but not too much. But lives that are like those of the disciples, of whom it was said, 'They took notice of them, that they had been with Jesus."' (EP 113f.). 

On this basis Kelly criticized the Society of Friends of his day for a cooling down, a shrinking back, a delicacy not found either in Scripture or in their founders. It was, he said, an invasion of secularity into the church (EP 112f., 116f.). 

"Even the Quaker preaching upon the immediacy of Divine Presence, for which there is no substitute in religious learnedness or endeavor, even this preaching has been a thing for many Quakers to believe in, not a gateway into the experience of God Himself" (EP 111).

One shape that this life takes is that of worship and prayer, whether public or private:

An invariable element in the experience of Now is that of unspeakable and exquisite joy, peace, serene release. A new song is put into our mouths .... But the main point is not that a new song is put into our mouths; the point is that a new song is put into our mouths. We sing, yet not we, but the Eternal sings in us ...(TD 97f.).

We re-read the poets and the saints, and... the Scriptures, with no thought of pious exercise, but in order to find more friends for the soul .... Particularly does devotional literature become illuminated, for the Imitation of Christ, and Augustine's Confessions, and Brother Lawrence's Practice of the Presence of God speak the language of the souls who live at the Center (TD 82).

The topics of Church and world drew out of Kelly some of his most eloquent writing. "When we are drowned in the overwhelming seas of the love of God," he wrote,
we find ourselves in a new and particular relation to a few of our fellows. The relation is so surprising and so rich that we despair of finding a word glorious enough and weighty enough to name it. The word Fellowship is discovered, but the word is pale and thin in comparison with... the experience which it would designate. For a new kind of life-sharing and of love has arisen of which we had had only dim hints before (TD 77).
Kelly took very seriously the biblical concept of koinonia:
The disclosure of God normally brings the disclosure of the Fellowship. We don't create it deliberately; we find it and we find ourselves increasingly within it as we find ourselves increasingly within Him. It is the holy matrix of 'the communion of the saints; the body of Christ which is His church .... Yet can one be surprised at being at home? (TD 80f.).
For Kelly it is important that this "new and particular relation" does not result in escape from the world or in retreat from its suffering. Instead, "the experience of divine Presence contains within it not only a sense of being energized from a heavenly Beyond; it contains also a sense of being energized toward an earthly world" (EP 25f.).
We are torn loose from earthly attachments and ambitions contemptus mundi. And we are quickened to a divine but painful concern for the world -- amor mundi. He plucks the world out of our hearts, loosening the chains of attachment. And He hurls the world into our hearts, where we and He together carry it in infinitely tender love (TD 47).
This note of compassion, of tenderness, sounds repeatedly through Kelly's scattered essays. Reflecting on his experiences in Hitler's Germany, he writes,
For a few agonized moments we may seem to be given to stand within the heart of the World-Father and feel the infinite sufferings of love toward all the Father's children. And pain inflicted on them becomes pain inflicted on ourselves. Were the experience not also an experience suffused with radiant peace and power and victory, as well as tragedy, it would be unbearable (EP 29).

One might almost say we become cosmic mothers, tenderly caring for all .... Would that we could relove the whole world! (TD 990.

There is a sense in which, in this terrible tenderness, we become one with God and bear in our quivering souls the sins and burdens, the benightedness and the tragedy of the creatures of the whole world, and suffer in their suffering, and die in their death (TD 107).

Kelly acknowledged quite frankly that there is a suffering in the world so awesome, so vast, that it can only be termed unremovable. "I must confess," he wrote, "that, on human judgment, the world tasks we face are appalling -- well-nigh hopeless." (TD 64). "An awful solemnity is upon the earth, for the last vestige of earthly security is gone. It has always been gone, and religion has always said so, but we haven't believed it. There is an inexorable amount of suffering in all life, blind, aching, unremovable, not new but only terribly intensified in these days" (TD 68ff.).
"But there is also removable suffering;" as Kelly put it:

The Cross as dogma is painless speculation; the Cross as lived suffering is anguish and glory. I dare not urge you to your Cross. But He, more powerfully, speaks within you and me, to our truest selves, in our truest moments, and disquiets us with the world's needs. By inner persuasions He draws us to a few very definite tasks, our tasks, God's burdened heart particularizing His burdens in us (TD 710 .

...He, working within us, portions out His vast concern into bundles, and lays on each of us our portion. These become our tasks (TD 123).

It was important to Kelly that Christians become responsible to and for the specific concerns God places within them. Good intentions do not substitute for concrete action that addresses specifics -- action prompted by immediate spiritual guidance.
When we say Yes or No to calls for service on the basis of heady decisions, we have to give reasons, to ourselves and to others. But when we say Yes or No to calls, on the basis of inner guidance... we have no reason to give, except one -- the will of God as we discern it. Then we have begun to live in guidance. And I find He never guides us into an intolerable scramble of panting feverishness. The Cosmic Patience becomes, in part, our patience, for after all God is at work in the world. It is not we alone who are at work in the world, frantically finishing a work to be offered to God (TD 123f.).
Kelly says little about the future except to comment on time and eternity.
Were earthly life to end in this moment, all would be well. For this Here, this Now, is not a mathematical point in the stream of Time; it is swollen with Eternity, it is the dwelling place of God Himself. We ask no more; we are at home. Thou who hast made us for Thyself dost in each moment give us our rest in Thee. Each moment has a Before and After; but still deeper, it has Eternity, and we have tasted it and are satisfied (EP 21f.).

Life from the Center is a life of unhurried peace and power. It is simple. It is serene. It is amazing. It is triumphant. It is radiant. It takes no time, but it occupies all our time. And it makes our life programs new and overcoming. We need not get frantic. He is at the helm. And when our little day is done we lie down quietly in peace, for all is well (TD 124).

ASSESSMENT

We may now attempt a summary analysis of the devotional theology of Thomas Kelly. In assaying the contents of Kelly's writings, it is imperative that we not seek for a fully-orbed theological statement. Although he was seminary trained as well as philosophically disciplined, Kelly's writings are occasional pieces, always assuming familiarity with Quaker thought and life. At the same time, he displayed the gifts of being able to transcend the limits of denominationalism (EP 45) and to communicate that broader vision through the spoken and written word (EP 7).

In the area of theology proper, Kelly adopts a traditional Quaker stance, emphasizing the inner light, the living Christ, the prevenient Spirit resident within every person. According to this doctrine, we search vainly in the world or in others for God. Instead, we need a turning inward to the depths of our being and a cultivation of the God who is already active there. The imperative of personal experience of this God is strong and consistent in all that Kelly wrote.(10)

In anthropology, he "employs always a positive psychology, founded upon the Quaker high estimate of human nature and potential." (11) Simultaneously, he believes humanity has been marred by sin, and the result is that we do not seek God rightly or we try to flee from the hound of heaven. We are -- to use Kelly's terms -- fragmented, shallow, and disorganized, needing to become settled, coordinated, and unselfed. The crux of the matter is the human will which can, if it chooses, discern and obey the will of God. Taken alone, such a concept sounds Pelagian, but the initiative for Kelly is always divine, so that we are in truth responders and followers and disciples.

No clear line of transition in soteriology is prescribed by Kelly, no outward repentance is called for. Instead there may be, in his view, an awkward turning toward the light and a rather groping start at walking in it. Eventually there should come a kind of living in which we function adequately on two levels at once: the upper, outer order of life which is visible to others, and the deep, inner level where true reality dwells. The goal is continuously refreshed immediacy, and this immediacy will express itself in both worship and service, in work as well as prayer.

Kelly's ecclesiology describes the Church as the company of those so committed, the blessed community in which we are at home in the interconnectedness of those who are loved and who love in return. In this fellowship the usual symbols of Christian faith (e.g., language, creeds, sacraments) may give way to such "recreated symbols" as lived-out behaviors and filled silence. Here the practice of the presence of God is ongoing daily business. Scripture and devotional literature become staples for the journey which takes the form of dual vertical and horizontal dimensions. The most difficult aspects come in maintaining holy obedience to the God who asks all, and in entering suffering for the sake of God's world.

At the end lies death and the experience of a life where work and worship coalesce in a single reality. As for the world, Kelly does not intimate whether it may continue forever or end with bang or whimper. What matters -- and, for him, all that matters -- is the ongoing encounter with the God who addresses us through the living Christ within our truest selves.

CONCLUSION: THE DIVINE INVASION

Several closing comments about the work of Kelly may be in order. Like all substantial devotional writing, it needs to be read slowly, thoughtfully, and repeatedly. At first glance some of his language may sound dissonant. God for example, is referred to as the Presence, the Center, the Silence, the Abyss, the Seed. Those already acquainted with Quaker devotion or the mystical authors of the Church should have no difficulty with the language. Readers may, in fact, be pleased that Kelly uses almost none of the technical vocabulary normally found in philosophers and theologians.

A second and related comment concerns Kelly's use of Scripture, which is more indirect than direct. Ever the Quaker, he relies on a principle enunciated by George Fox: "The Lord has come to teach His people Himself." Revelation therefore is a present experience, and Scripture is to be understood from within the life of God. Kelly's bent to rigorous scholarship does not eliminate matters of grammatical-historical exegesis but, to use Reformation terminology, the inner witness of the Spirit takes precedence.

Finally, upon first reading, one may conclude that Jesus of Nazareth occupies little place in Kelly's thought, for he seldom refers to the events of Bethlehem, Galilee, Calvary, or Pentecost. Incarnation and atonement are scarcely mentioned. This is not because Kelly was oblivious to them or uncaring of them, but because he had adopted from study and personal experience the view of the living and written Word already described. In one striking passage, however, he does speak of the significance of Jesus:

In the dawning experience of the living Christ, the life, the teaching, and particularly the Cross and the triumph of Jesus of Nazareth become indescribably vivid and significant. For in Him the Divine Invasion... has taken place as never before, nor since, complete .... And although we understand Him in part, through the Living Christ, yet we do not understand all. For the communion of Love and Suffering... and victory on the Cross contains the secret which leads back into the very nature of God Himself (EP 31f.).
In so saying, Thomas Kelly had come home. His search for an adequate life was fulfilled and, a half-century later, his description remains true and relevant.

NOTES
  1. Richard M. Kelly, Thomas Kelly: A Biography (New York: Harper & Row, 1966), p. 122.

  2. D. Elton Trueblood, The People Called Quakers (New York: Harper & Row, 1966), p. 222.

  3. Almost all of Thomas Kelly's published works are to be found in two volumes, 1] A Testament of Devotion (New York: Harper & Brothers, 1941), hereafter abbreviated TD, and 2] The Eternal Promise (New York: Harper & Row, 1966), hereafter abbreviated EP. Cf. the one item by Kelly not included in TD or EP: 3] "The Reality of the Spiritual World" in The Pendle Hill Reader, ed. Herrymon Maurer, Essay Index Reprint Series (Freeport, NY: Books for Libraries Press, n.d.), pp. 1-40. It was a lecture first published in Great Britain in 1944.

  4. Kelly suffered from hay fever so severe that it usually left him bedfast, a sinus infection which required surgery, kidney stones at the age of forty, and, at almost forty-two, a nervous breakdown (see TD 15; Richard Kelly op. cit., p. 69).

  5. Ibid., pp. 91f.

  6. Douglas V. Steere, A Testament of Devotion, Living Selections from the Great Devotional Classics (Nashville: The Upper Room, 1955), p. 5.

  7. Elton Trueblood, The New Man for Our Time (New York: Harper & Row, 1970), p. 63. Trueblood includes Kelly's work in a list of classics for the nurture of Christian spirituality. The other authors in Trueblood's list are Augustine, Thomas à Kempis, Lancelot Andrewes, John Donne, Blaise Pascal, John Woolman, and William Law.

  8. Richard J. Foster, Celebration of Discipline: The Path to Spiritual Growth, rev. ed. (New York: Harper & Row, 1988), pp. 27, 45, 72, 80, 128, 164; Freedom of Simplicity (San Francisco: Harper & Row, 1981), pp. 5, 78, 86, 87, 103.

  9. E. Glenn Hinson (ed.), The Doubleday Devotional Classics, Volume III (Garden City, NY: Doubleday & Company, 1978), p. 165. Hinson's introduction to Kelly's life and work (pp. 165-81) is an outstanding condensation of the known data about him together with Hinson's discerning interpretation.

  10. "Like Rufus Jones, Thomas Kelly interpreted Quakerism as fundamentally empirical. It is not enough, he insisted, to believe; we must actually experience the love of God .... His words came out of what can only be called a baptism by fire. He was enkindled and he burned with a fast flame" (Elton Trueblood in Herrymon Maurer, op. cit., p. xi).

  11. Hinson, op. cit., p. 161.

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2020. 3. 5. — 그래서 성인은 모든 시비를 조화시켜 하늘의 저울[天鈞]에 맡기고 편안히 쉬니, 이것을 일컬어 양행(兩行)이라 한다. <장자(내편) : 제2편 제물론> ...

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이 때문에 성인은 옳고 그름을 뒤섞어서 하늘의 저울에 맡기고 편안히 쉬니 이것을 양행 (兩行) 이라 한다.  勞神明하야 爲一하고 而不知其同也를 謂之朝三 이니 何謂朝 ...


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그래서 장자(壯子)는 시비를 초월하고 선악을 구분하지 말라고 했다. ... 하늘은 하늘대로 시시각각 심판을 내리고 속세는 속세대 로 심판의 저울을 잰다.
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<짧은 명상>

개와 고양이는 같은가, 다른가? 개와 사람은? 사람과 책상은? 기쁨과 슬픔은? 꿈과 현실은? 삶과 죽음은? 『장자』는 <제물론(齊物論)>에서 모든 것을 평등하게 보라고 말한다. 너 중심[爲是]으로 보지 말고, 있는 그대로[因是]를 보라고, 하늘의 저울[天均]로 존재롤 달아보라고. 모든 것이 같다고, 다를 바 없다고 말한다. 이 마음을 소명태자는 깨끗한 마음[淨心]이라 표현했고, 금강경은 선한 법[善法]이라 말했다.

평등은 그런 것이다. 자기를 잃어야 평등한 것이다. 선한 실천 또한 마찬가지. 자기를 잃어야 선한 것이다.

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<동양 철학의 주요 개념 여행>*개념: 사고를 진행해 나가는 필수 재료 (철학을 위한 기초) + 대상의 공통의 성질


*도(道): 도가(道家)의 개념뿐만 아니라 모든 학파들이 모두 사용어원) 걸어가다+머리 합쳐진 글자 (머리가 향한 방향; 길) → 사람이 반드시 가야 할 길 (The Way)의미 확장) 별들이 움직이는 궤도(天道) → 사람이 어떤 일을 당해 처리해 본 경험; 전례, 관례라는 뜻의 사람의 길(人道) → 과거 경험뿐 아니라 미래에 나아갈 길, 지켜야 할 길, 해야만 하는 길처럼 사람의도리 및 규범 (사람이 자식으로서 부모에게 나아가야 할 길인 ‘효도’, 부모가 자식에게 나아가야 할 길인 ‘자애’, 사람이면 지켜야 할 길인 ‘도리’; 도=도덕적의무가 됨)→ 자연과 사회의 모든 현상을 설명하는 원리*구체→추상, 개별→보편으로 바뀐 것을 알 수 있음. 감각적으로 확인 가능한 것에서 이성으로 파악해냄왜 길인가?) 길은 어딘가를 가려면 반드시 지나야 하며 다른 두 곳을 연결해 줌. 선조들이 걸어다닌 곳이고 그 길로 가면 안전함 (사람의 흔적)유가’s 도) 인간이 만들어서 가야 할 길; 천도, 인도, 군도(君道 군주의 길), 신도(臣道 신하의 길), 자도(子道 자식이 지켜야 할 길), 부지도(父之道 아버지가 걸어온 길), 부도(婦道 아내가 준수해야 할 길)도가’s 도) 인간의 길 (어디에 있느냐와 관련해서 유가와 다름); 인간의 바람, 욕망과 무관하게 이 세상은 위대한 길에 의해 전개되고 있고 인간은 그 길에 맞춰 살아야 함 (다른 용어와 결합하지 않고 홀로 쓰임; 道可道 非常道처럼 결합 x)도가’s 도↔유가’s 도) 유가의 도는 위인들이 후손들에게 보이는 모범이라는 점에서 개인적인 특성이 있지만 도가의 도는 인간 중심 사고에서 벗어나 만물의 존재 원리라는 특성을 가짐 (인간의 바람과 무관). 유가의 도는 ~도처럼 결합해서 쓰이지만 도가의 도는 결합하지 않음


*천(天)어원) 大(사람 본 뜬 글자)의 위에 빈 네모를 부가 (사람 머리 위의 빈 공간, 사람 위에 있는 곳) ‘위’라는 위치뿐만 아니라 지배와 복종이라는 비대칭적인 권력의 역학 관계를 나타냄의미 확장) 

천명(天命 하늘의 명령)이 나타내듯이 사회, 역사의 주인공은 사람이 아니라 하늘 (신앙의 대상) → 하늘이 이해의 대상이 됨 (규칙성 등에 대해 “무언가 시켰다(或使)_천에 인격성 부여” or “어떤 것도 시키지 않았다(莫爲)_천에 객관적 이치의 특성 부여”) → 이러한 논의를 통해 단순한 공간의 의미를 벗어나 인간과 구별되는 세계=천이 됨; 자연도가’s 천) 노자와 장자에 이르러 하늘(자연)은 아무런 의지도 지니지 않은 자연 그 자체로 고려됨 (인간중심적인 관점으로 해석하는 것을 지양) 노의 제후가 바다새를 영접하였지만 새가 먹지 않았다는 이야기를 통해 인간과 자연의 인격적인 연대를 전면적으로 부정 (장자-『삶의 통달』)도가의 천과 근대 과학의 자연관) 근대 이후 자연은 생명도 의지도 없는 한갓 물질로서 철저하게 물리적 인과 법칙에 따라 반복 운동하는 기계로 생각됨. 

그러므로 인간은 자연에게 배울 바가 전혀 없다고 단언. 그러나 노자와 장자는 자연으로서 하늘을 무의지의 세계로 보았음에도 불구하고 인간이 배울점이 있다고 생각 (人法地, 地法天, 天法道, 道法自然 = 人法自然 _인지천도자연)논어’s 천) 

논어에서는 하늘이 사람에게 죄를 주기 때문에 호오(好惡)든 이치든 기준이 있어야 한다 생각; 獲罪於天 無所禱也 (획죄어천 무소도야) 하늘에 죄를 지으면 빌 곳이 없다노자’s 천) 자연은 어떤 애정도 품고 있지 않으며 만물을 차별없이 낳되 소유하지 않음. 기울어지지 않고 사사롭지 않으려면 자연처럼 인간도 비어있어야 함天地不仁(천지불인) 以萬物 爲芻狗(이만물 위추구): 천지는 어질지 않아 만물을 풀 강아지로 여기고聖人不仁(성인불인) 以百姓爲芻狗(이백성 위추구): 성인은 어질지 않아 백성을 풀 강아지로 간주한다天地之間(천지지간) 其猶槖籥乎(기유탁약호): 하늘과 땅 사이는 풀무와도 같다虛而不屈(허이불굴) 動而愈出(동이유출): 텅 비어 있으나 없어지지 않고 움직이면 더 많이 낳는다多言數窮(다언수궁) 不如守中(불여수중): 말을 많이 하면 자주 막히게 되니 비우도록 하는 게 낫다

*추구(芻狗 풀 강아지): 제사 시 대용 제물로 제사가 끝나면 버려짐. 용도에 따라 때로는 소중히 여겨지다가 무용해지면 무참하게 버려지는 것이 사물의 변화, 즉 신진대사의 진정한 과정이라는 것을 의미


*풀무: 불을 지필 때 바람을 일으키는 기구. 풀무로 바람을 일으키는 일을 ‘풀무질’이라 함


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1부 시골 경찰서장의 편지

가지 않은 길∙사수의 가르침∙시골 경찰서장의 편지∙택시기사의 눈물∙수구초심∙
장죽과 곰방대∙나쁜 사람은 없다 나쁜 상황이 있을 뿐이다∙우문나답∙우리가 지나온 풍경
나팔꽃 인생 1

2부 까칠한 사람

까칠한 사람∙꿈과 욕망∙오십보백보∙싸움소 범이∙수박의 소리∙영화배우 송강호∙
바바리코트∙풍악을 울려라∙낮술∙나의 버킷리스트
나팔꽃 인생 2

3부 나도 나에게 타인이다

참된 것과 귀한 것∙교황님 가라사대∙관점∙생각을 르네상스하라∙기다림을 기다리며∙
나도 나에게 타인이다∙칠거지악의 복수∙어쩌면 첫사랑∙이 또한 지나가리라
나팔꽃 인생 3

4부 물을 부어도 새지 않는 사이

사소함에 대한 고찰∙모기를 위한 변호∙할매 순두부집에서∙추석 단상∙나의 영웅 김득구∙
말을 리뉴얼하라∙물을 부어도 새지 않는 사이∙변신이야기
나팔꽃 인생 4

5부 박꽃 피고 기러기 날면

사모곡∙부모님 동의서∙박꽃 피고 기러기 날면∙초헌의 의미∙내 편∙콩깍지 ∙
치자 꽃향기 맡으며∙논산 풍경∙꼰대가 꽃에게∙상석의 의미∙삼식이와 누레오치바
나팔꽃 인생 5

6부 호모사피엔스의 유치원

멋대로 & 법대로∙미워도 다시 한 번∙보수와 진보∙호모사피엔스의 유치원∙
최후의 승자 불멸의 민중∙이 풍진세상 사는 일이∙헬조선을 위한 변론
나팔꽃 인생 6

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P. 17 제복 속에 갇힌 나와 달리 달콤한 자유의 바다를 누비는 것 같은 친구들을 보며 나는 연신 막걸리를 들이켰다. 술집에서 엉망으로 취해 어떻게 귀교를 했는지 모르겠다. 교정 벤치에 앉아 꺼이꺼이 울고 있는 내 목소리가 문득 나를 깨웠다. 내 나이 열아홉 살이었다. _「가지 않은 길」
P. 80 ‘조금’이란 말이 좋게 느껴진다. 조금은 조석의 간만 차가 가장 작을 때를 말하고 ‘사리’는 가장 큰 경우다. 이 세상에 조금 이하가 없으므로 완벽이 있을 수 없다. 우리 별 지구는 그렇게 만들어진 것이다. 그래서 우리는 조금 질투하고 조금 게으르고 조금 잘못하고 조금 배신해도 인간으로서 허용될 수 있는 공간 내에 있으며 과히 비... 더보기
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소 서장과 나는 죽마고우다. 나는 고향을 떠나 영화배우의 길을 걸었고 소 서장은 경찰대학에 입학해 경찰의 길을 걸었다. 방향은 달랐지만 내가 느꼈던 세상의 벽과 외로움을 뒷배 없는 그도 맞서 느끼면서 여기까지 왔을 것이다. 같은 마을에서 뛰어놀고 같은 하늘을 바라보고 같은 공기를 호흡했던 친구의 글을 보면, 흥미로우면서도 그를 지금까지 잘 버티게 한 어떤 힘이 느껴진다. 소 서장도 자기 인생의 주인공으로서 앞으로 더 빛나는 이야기를 만들어가리라 믿는다. 마음을 다해 축하를 보낸다. - 송강호 (배우) 
오랫동안 소 서장을 알아왔다. 늘 반듯하고 꾸준한 소 서장의 성품이 글 곳곳에 배어 있음을 느낀다. 세상에 이치가 무너지면 백성이 편하지 않으며 선비가 이치를 따져 묻지 않으면 나라가 위태로운 법이다. 민심은 항상 순리의 편에 있듯 정치도 순리를 따르는 것이 민심을 받드는 것이리라. 공직자로서 소 서장이 말하는 이치가 반갑고 또 그걸 행간에서 꺼내 읽는 것도 쏠쏠한 재미가 느껴진다. 수필집 발간을 진심으로 축하한다. - 이진복 (자유한국당 의원) 
나는 행복한 사람이다. 이 호불호가 분명한 후배로부터 늘 지지를 받아왔기 때문이다. 소 서장은 나보다 다섯 살 아래의 후배지만 술상대로도 손색이 없었다. 글을 읽다 보면 그가 고민했던 공정의 가치와 모든 살아 있는 것들에 대한 인간으로서의 연민을 느낀다. 나는 선배로서 공직자인 그를 지지하며 항상 행복하기를 바랄 뿐이다. - 박화병 
초중고를 같이 다니며 내가 바라본 친구는 한결같은 사나이다. 흙수저 출신이지만 나약한 모습을 보이지 않았다. 이렇게 수필집까지 출간하다니, 내 마음이 다 훈훈해진다. 친구야! 고맙고 축하한다. - 문재곤 (농협지점장) 
오래전 어쩌다 소 서장을 알게 되었다. 만나면 만날수록 매력이 있는 친구다. 그중의 하나가 진취적인 사고다. 공직자로서 현실을 보면서도 구질구질한 이야기를 하지 않는다. 그래서인지 술은 그와 마셔야 맛있다. 지성의 눈이 늘 소 작가와 함께하기를 바라며 이 책이 많은 사람들에게 읽혔으면 좋겠다. - 엄희석 (엘레강스 파리홈 대표) 
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▶ 수필가 소진기의 첫 번째 에세이
등단 후 성실히 써 내려간 글을 모으다
부산 북부경찰서장 소진기의 에세이집이다. 저자는 현직 경찰서장이자 2004년 『수필세계』 로 등단한 이력을 가진 수필가이기도 하다. 그의 첫 번째 에세이집 『나도 나에게 타인이다』에는 수필가로서 첫발을 내딛게 한 글인 「수박의 소리」, 「초헌의 의미」, 「내 편」부터, 10여 년이 넘는 시간 동안 성실히 써 내려간 글들이 차곡차곡 담겨 있다.
총 6부로 구성된 이번 책에는 경찰공무원으로 걸어온 길을 돌아보는 소회와 함께, 자연인 소진기의 삶을 돌아보는 글과, 가족을 향한 애정과 그리움 그리고 한국사회에 대한 뼈아프지만 날카로운 시선이 담긴 글들이 수록되었다.

▶ 지난날 내가 ‘가지 못한 길’을 생각하며,
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실제로는 초야에 묻혀 조용히 지낸 진정한 글잡이이며
이제야 세상에 모습을 드러내지 않았나 라고 생각됩니다.

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[생각의 심연 『장자』] 조삼모사 朝三暮四
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[원불교신문=김지법 교무] 「제물론」을 읽다 보면 우리에게 익숙한 이야기가 나온다. 저공(狙公)이 원숭이들에게 아침에 3개, 저녁에 4개를 주겠다고 하자, 원숭이들이 화를 냈다. 그러자 저공은 다시 원숭이들에게 아침에 4개, 저녁에 3개를 주겠다고 했고, 원숭이들은 모두 기뻐했다. 이 고사성어는 일반적으로 ‘간사한 꾀로 남을 속이는 것’ 또는 ‘눈앞의 이익에만 급급한 어리석음’을 뜻한다. 그런데 장자는 이 이야기를 왜 할까.

먼저 원숭이들의 입장으로 생각해보자. 원숭이들은 경제학적으로 탁월한 선택을 했다. 먼저 많이 받는 것이 이익이기 때문이다. 원숭이들이 활동을 낮에 한다면, 먹이를 먼저 먹어야 움직이기 수월하다. 반면 밤에 잠을 잔다면, 많은 먹이가 필요하지 않다. 또한 시간에 따른 위험이 발생할 수 있다. 예컨대 저공이 약속을 지키지 않거나 저녁이 되었을 때 먹이가 부족할 수도 있다. 따라서 원숭이들은 가능하면 먼저 많이 받는 선택을 하는 것이 유리하다.

한편 저공 역시 원숭이들의 요구를 들어주는 것이 합리적이다. 어차피 준다면, 아침에 많이 주나 저녁에 많이 주나 상관없기 때문이다. 더욱이 저공의 선택은 상대방의 마음을 헤아리고 의견을 수용하는 아량으로 보인다. 저공은 자신의 관점만을 원숭이들에게 강요하지 않고, 원숭이들의 관점을 이해하고 수용했다. 결과가 같다면, 굳이 자신의 견해만을 고집하고 다른 사람의 입장을 배려하지 않을 이유가 없지 않은가.

장자는 이 이야기를 통해 ‘이것이다 저것이다’ 하는 시비(是非)가 상황이나 입장에 따라 다를 수 있음을 보여준다. 누군가에게 옳은 것(是)이 다른 누군가에게는 그렇지 않을(非) 수 있다. 나에게 가까운 것을 ‘이것(是)’이라 한다면, 다른 사람에게는 먼 것이라 ‘저것(非)’이 될 것이다. 결과적으로 같으니 저공은 원숭이들에게 ‘나를 따르라’라고 강요하지 않는다. 그는 원숭이들의 이익을 배려한다. 그렇기에 저공은 ‘하늘의 저울(天鈞)’에 머물러, ‘두 가지 모두 나아가게(兩行)’ 한다.

‘하늘의 저울’은 ‘이쪽’과 ‘저쪽’의 균형을 잡는 자리를 뜻한다. 무거운 추(錘)를 매달고 균형을 잡은 저울은 ‘이쪽’도 ‘저쪽’도 모두 그대로 있게 한다. 어느 한쪽으로 기울지 않고 모두를 살린다. 마치 저공도 원숭이들도 모두 만족하듯.

시비는 ‘이것이다 저것이다’ 또는 ‘옳다 그르다’를 판별하는 일이다. 그런데 장자는 그 기준점이 항상 변하여 고정되지 않음을 간파한다. 천지는 음양의 기운에 따라 계절의 변화를 겪는다. 여름의 시원함은 겨울의 혹독한 추위를 뜻하고, 겨울의 따뜻함은 여름의 무더움을 의미한다. 이렇듯 시비는 상황에 따라 항상 달라진다. 상대(相對)로 이루어진 세계에서 시비는 불변의 것이 아니다. ‘이것’과 ‘저것’을 동시에 볼 수 있겠는가.

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Rediscovering the spiritual writings of Thomas R. Kelly - Friends Journal By L. Roger Owens

A Mysticism for Our Time - Friends Journal



A Mysticism for Our Time


September 1, 2017

By L. Roger Owens

Rediscovering the spiritual writings of Thomas R. Kelly
Thomas R. Kelly, “The Record of the Class of 1914.” Courtesy of Quaker and Special Collections, Haverford College, Haverford, Pa.

While doing doctoral studies at Harvard in 1931, Thomas R. Kelly, a Quaker and author of the spiritual classic A Testament of Devotion, wrote to a friend and offered an assessment of famed British mathematician Bertrand Russell. He said that Russell seemed to him like an “intellectual monastic,” fleeing to the safety of pure logic to avoid the “infections of active existence” and the “sordid rough-and-tumble of life.”

When studying the papers of Kelly at Haverford College outside of Philadelphia, cocooned in the safety of the library’s special collections room the week after the presidential election, I was struck by this remark about Russell. I realized that many have leveled the same charge against mystics like Kelly himself. They are the ones, the story goes, who flee into an interior world of spiritual experience to escape the rough-and-tumble of actual existence.

The suggestion is not unfounded. Kelly’s thinking about mysticism was carried out under the long shadow of psychologist and philosopher William James: Kelly worked with James’s understanding of mysticism as the experience of the solitary individual. Kelly was also writing in the period following Evelyn Underhill’s influential Mysticism—its twelfth edition published during the years he was at Harvard—in which she writes that introversion is the “characteristic mystic art” that aids a contemplative in the “withdrawal of attention from the external world.”

That Kelly might be branded, then, a guide to the experiences of the inner life alone seems reasonable. My research has caused me to rethink this assessment; now I see Kelly as a mystic whose life is one of commitment to the world, not escape from it. And he can be a resource for those of us searching for a worldly engaged spirituality.




Istarted reading Kelly when I was 32. I remember this when seeing the mark I made in the biographical introduction to A Testament of Devotion of what Kelly was doing when he was 32. Because I wanted to explore the inner life of prayer he wrote about and lived, I was as drawn to the story of his life as I was to his writings.

A lifelong Quaker, Kelly was academically ambitious, driven, convinced that success as an academic philosopher would ensure he mattered. He received a doctorate from Hartford Theological Seminary in 1924 and began teaching at Earlham College in Indiana. But he pined for the rarefied intellectual atmosphere and prestige of an elite East Coast college. In 1930 he began work on a second doctorate at Harvard, assuming this would be his ticket east. But when he appeared for the oral defense of his dissertation in 1937, he suffered an anxiety attack; his mind went blank. Harvard refused to let him try again.



This failure proved the turning point in his life. It thrust him into a deep depression; his wife feared he might be suicidal. It also occasioned his most profound mystical experience, and he emerged a few months later settled, having been, as he put it in a letter to his wife, “much shaken by an experience of Presence.”

His friend Douglas Steere, a colleague at Haverford where Kelly was teaching at the time (he made it back east), summarized how many perceived the fruit of Kelly’s experience: “[A] strained period in his life was over. He moved toward adequacy. A fissure in him seemed to close, cliffs caved in and filled a chasm, and what was divided grew together within him.”

Three years later Thomas Kelly, 47 years old, died suddenly while washing dishes. The essays published in A Testament of Devotion were written in those few years between the fissures closing and his death. He died not only a scholar who wrote about mysticism, but a mystic himself, who knew firsthand that experience of spiritual solitude purported to be the essence of religion.

Far from sinking into the solitude of mystical bliss after emerging into his new, centered life, he promptly made an exhausting three-month trip to Germany in the summer of 1938, where he lectured, gave talks at German Quaker meetings, and ministered to the Quakers there who were suffering under Hitler.

The purpose of Kelly’s trip to Germany was to deliver the annual Richard Cary Lecture at the yearly meeting of German Friends. His letters home detail his painstaking preparation. He met frequently with his translator, working through the manuscript for several hours a day to render it in German. In a tribute to Kelly that was sent to his wife following his death, his translator—a Quaker woman of Jewish ancestry—said that his presence and his message were what the German Friends needed in “a time of increasing anxiety and hopelessness.”



From the beginning of the lecture, Kelly’s florid language is on display: he comes across as an evangelist for mystical experience, the “inner presence of the Divine Life.” His purpose is to witness to the inner experience of this divine life, this “amazing, glorious, triumphant, and miraculously victorious way of life.” He’s not offering an argument for it, or a psychology of it, following James, but a description resting upon experience.

Importantly, early on, he rejects any notion that this is a merely otherworldly experience. (In the published version of this lecture more than 20 years after its delivery, Kelly’s son cut out this section, maybe because it’s technically denser than the rest or maybe because it didn’t fit the mold of relevance for spiritual writing.) Kelly believed that the Social Gospel Movement of his time had too narrow a horizon, having bracketed out the persuading, wooing power of the Eternal. It is the one place, he noted, that he agrees with theologian Karl Barth. On the other hand, the experience he’s describing does not issue in withdrawal or flight from the world. “For,” as he puts it, “the Eternal is in Time, breaking into Time, underlying Time.” In fact, the mystical opening to an eternal “Beyond” opens simultaneously to a second beyond: “the world of earthly need and pain and joy and beauty.” There is no either-or.

This is precisely the place where Kelly’s experience makes all the difference. His weeks in Germany brought him into contact with many Quakers. He saw how they were at once struggling to live under the Nazi regime in fear, anxiety, and material want while also serving their suffering neighbors.

We learn this in a 22-page letter he wrote near the end of his trip. (Kelly spent two days in France in order to write and send home this frank letter describing the situation in Germany, fearing his letters sent from Germany were being read.) He notes in the letter that though Germany is “spruced up, slicked up,” its soul echoes hollow. If you were not a Nazi, you were always afraid, he wrote, because there’s “no law by which the police are governed.” He expresses amazement at the difficulty of getting good information, lamenting the lack of a free press because of the government’s stretching its “tentacles” deep in every news source. “There are many, many,” he writes, “who pay no attention to the newspapers. Why would they?”

But he puts a human face on these generalizations. He tells the story of a man who wouldn’t pay into a Nazi-run community fund because he was caring for the wife and children of a man in a concentration camp. This man lost his job and was also sent to a concentration camp. He expresses disgust at the signs everywhere that say “No Jews!” He writes about the courage some people display in not saying “Heil Hitler,” and the crushing blow it is to the conscience of those who do say it because they have children to feed and fear retribution. “It’s all crazy, isn’t it?” he writes. “But it’s real.”

He realizes he can’t ignore this suffering, even as he reflects on returning to the relatively safe, comfortable suburbs of Philadelphia and to his position at Haverford College. God hadn’t just shown himself to Kelly in a solitary moment of mystical experience, for as he says, “The suffering of the world is a part, too, of the life of God, and so maybe, after all, it is a revelation,” a revelation he knew couldn’t leave him unchanged.

This letter describes the context in which he gave the Cary Lecture. He believed these German Friends needed to hear both the message of the possibility of a vibrant inner life, and also how this inner life invites them into a sacrificial bearing of the burdens of their neighbors and a continued search for joy, the divine glory shimmering in the midst of sorrow.


And now we must say—it sounds blasphemous, but mystics are repeatedly charged with blasphemy—now we must say it is given to us to see the world’s suffering, throughout, and bear it, God-like, upon our shoulders, and suffer with all things and all men, and rejoice with all things and all men, and we see the hills clap their hands for joy, and we clap our hands with them.

A decade ago when I read passages like this in A Testament of Devotion, the admonitions seemed tame, tinged with poetic excess. When I read this today, knowing the context of its writing, I see it differently: it’s a summons to a vocation, the vocation of seeing and acting as one in the world settled in God, open both to the deepest pain and the hidden beauty in the midst of suffering—a call to service and to faith.

The very day I was reading this lecture, holding the 80-year-old, yellowing pages in my hands, students at Haverford College were walking out of their classes in solidarity with their classmates who have lived most of their lives in this country, though illegally, to protest President Donald Trump’s proposed immigration policies. Similar walkouts were occurring on campuses across the country. That same week, Haverford students were in downtown Philadelphia protesting the police brutality they expect to continue under a Trump “law-and-order” administration.



Kelly’s lecture and letter resonate with these current events, not because of parallels between Nazi Germany and the victory of Trump—some have tried to make them, but that’s not my point. Rather, it is the suffering caused by fear (the fear immigrants, African Americans, Muslims, and refugees feel) that Kelly’s spirituality of a dual beyond—the Eternal Beyond, and the beyond within of suffering and joy—might prove able to guide us through, whenever such fear occurs. Just as Kelly’s presence and message were what the German Quakers needed to hear in their time of “increasing anxiety and hopelessness,” so too might the same message be needed in ours.

But this wisdom is useless if it’s not made concrete. There is no “suffering with all” in general, only concrete commitments to this or that person, this or that situation. Kelly knows this, and his most important point in the lecture is the exploration of the load-bearing wall of Quaker spirituality: the concern. A concern names the way a “cosmic suffering” and a “cosmic burden-bearing” become particular in actual existence. A concern names a “particularization”—one of Kelly’s favorite words—of God’s own care for a suffering world in the concrete reality of the life of this person, of this community. It is a “narrowing of the Eternal Imperative to a smaller group of tasks, which become uniquely ours.”

The Quakers in Germany can’t bear the burdens of all of Germany. But, when sensitized to the Spirit, they could discern how God’s care for the world could be made concrete, particular in their life together: in this caring for a neighbor, in this act of resistance, in this fleeting sharing in joy.

While he was reminding those German Quakers of something at the heart of their spirituality, he offered the rest of us a way out of the sense of being overwhelmed when we view the world’s suffering as a whole. “Again and again Friends have found springing up a deep-rooted conviction of responsibility for some specific world-situation.” For Kelly, mysticism included ineffable, inner experience, but also included a sense of the Eternal’s own turning in love toward the world, made concrete in particular lives and communities.



Ileft Haverford with these thoughts distilled into one word as I made my way back to my own community of Pittsburgh, a word that I knew, but Kelly gave to me anew: “discernment.” This is the word I want to carry, to offer to my church, the seminary where I teach, to all those who wonder how to live in the midst of suffering and fear—with the occasional upshot of joy. Discernment. How will God make concrete, particular, in my life, in my church community’s life, God’s own concern for the marginalized, displaced, and discriminated against? How will the mystical become flesh-and-blood in life’s rough-and-tumble, here and now, as it so longs to do?


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L. Roger Owens

L. Roger Owens teaches spirituality and ministry at Pittsburgh Theological Seminary and is the author of What We Need Is Here: Practicing the Heart of Christian Spirituality.

A Testament of Devotion | Friend of Silence

A Testament of Devotion | Friend of Silence



A Testament of Devotion

The wellsprings of life
Thomas Kelly | December 2021 (Vol. XXXIV, No. 11)
The wellsprings of life are bubbling up anew each moment. So when the angel is troubling the waters, it is no time to stand on the bank and recite past wonders.
~ Thomas Kelly in A TESTAMENT OF DEVOTION
Thomas Kelly
A Testament of Devotion
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winter

Life from the Center is a life of unhurried peace and power
Thomas Kelly | December 2009 (Vol. XXII, No. 11)


Life from the Center is a life of unhurried peace and power. It is serene and radiant. It takes no time, but it occupies all our time, making our life programs new and overcoming. We need not get frantic. Love is at the helm. And when our little day is done, we lie down quietly in peace, for all is well.
~ from A TESTAMENT OF DEVOTION by Thomas Kelly
Thomas Kelly
A Testament of Devotion
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stillness
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The Oneness of each to all through God is real, objective, existential
Thomas Kelley | April 2007 (Vol. XX, No. 4)


The Oneness of each to all through God is real, objective, existential. It is an eternal relationship which is shared in by every stick and stone and bird and beast and saint and sinner of the universe. On all, the wooing love of God falls urgently, persuadingly.

~ from A TESTAMENT OF DEVOTION by Thomas Kelley
Thomas Kelley
A Testament of Devotion
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summer

A Light Within which illumines the face of God
Thomas Kelly | December 2000 (Vol. XIII, No. 11)


Deep within us all, there ís an amazing inner sanctuary of the soul, a holy place, a Divine Center, a speaking Voice, to which we may continuously return. Eternity is at our hearts, pressing upon our time-torn líves, warming us wíth intimatíons of an astounding destiny, calling us home unto itself. Yielding to these persuasions, gladly committing ourselves in body and soul, utterly and completely, to the Light Within, is the beginning of true life. It is a dynamic center, a creative Life that presses to birth within us. It is a Light Within which illumines the face of God and casts new shadows and new glories upon the face of humanity.
~ from A TESTAMENT OF DEVOTION by Thomas Kelly
Thomas Kelly
A Testament of Devotion
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Behold I stand at the door and knock
Thomas R. Kelly | January 1988 (Vol. I, No. 1)


Our Quaker friends have much to teach us in the way of silence. The following quotations are taken from the little classic, A TESTAMENT OF DEVOTION, by Thomas R. Kelly:

"... the Living Christ within us is the initiator and we are the responders. God the Lover, the accuser, the revealer of light and darkness presses within us. 'Behold, I stand at the door and knock.' And all our apparent initiative is already a response, a testimonial to His secret presence and working within us.

"The basic response of the soul to the Light is internal adoration and joy, thanksgiving and worship, self-surrender and listening. The secret places of the heart cease to be our noisy workshop. They become a holy sanctuary of adoration and of self-oblation, where we are kept in perfect peace, if our minds be stayed on Him who had found us in the inward springs of our life ... In the Center of Creation all things are ours, and we are Christ's and Christ is God's."
~ from A TESTAMENT OF DEVOTION by Thomas R. Kelly
Thomas R. Kelly
A Testament of Devotion