Israeli Woman Marries Palestinian Then Converts To Islam
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What happens when two decades of marriage and a lifetime of tradition meet a single moment of curiosity? Lizzie joins us to discuss her life and the internal shift that drew her toward a new religious discovery.
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00:00 Introduction
01:03 Background
01:36 Growing up Jewish
03:07 Finding God
03:56 Meeting My Husband
06:09 Facing External Judgment
07:36 First Time in a Mosque
08:24 The Spark of Curiosity
11:37 Realizing the Truth
12:41 The Shahada
14:18 The Struggle of Living a Double Life
17:35 Telling the Family
20:43 Losing Friendships
21:23 My Favorite Thing About Islam
24:26 Understanding Allah
27:05 The Power of Prayer
33:34 The Best Form of Dawah
41:39 Common Misconceptions About Jesus
46:01 Reflections on the Day of Judgment
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<이슬람으로 개종한 팔레스타인 남성과 결혼한 이스라엘 여성> 요약
이 영상은 아르헨티나에서 태어나 이스라엘로 이주했던 유대인 여성 리지(Lizzie)가 이슬람으로 개종하게 된 여정을 다룬다. 그녀는 유대교 문화에서 성장하며 군 복무까지 마쳤으나, 유대교의 선민사상이나 복잡한 율법에서 영적인 안식처를 찾지 못했다. 리지는 이스라엘에서 팔레스타인 남성을 만나 결혼한 후 미국으로 이주했다.
그녀의 개종은 남편의 강요가 아닌, 2006년경 종교적으로 변화한 남편의 긍정적인 행동 변화를 목격하며 시작된 개인적인 호기심의 결과였다. 리지는 2010년 이슬람 사원을 처음 방문했을 때 느낀 평온함에 이끌려 샤하다(신앙 고백)를 바쳤다.
개종 후 초기 몇 년간 그녀는 유대인 사회와 직장 내의 적대적인 시선 때문에 히잡을 쓰지 않는 등 이중생활을 하며 정체성 혼란을 겪었다. 그러나 결국 히잡을 착용하기로 결심하면서 37년 지기 친구들을 잃는 아픔을 겪기도 했다. 현재 그녀는 이슬람을 단순한 종교가 아닌 삶의 방식으로 받아들이며, 하나님과의 연결을 통해 진정한 내면의 평화를 누리고 있다.
평론
이 작품은 종교적 귀의라는 개인적인 사건을 통해 이스라엘-팔레스타인 갈등이라는 거대 서사가 개인의 삶에 어떻게 투영되는지를 밀도 있게 보여준다. 리지의 서사는 단순히 종교를 바꾼 이야기가 아니라, 자신이 속했던 사회가 정의한 <적>의 정체성을 자신의 것으로 수용하는 과정을 담고 있다.
1. 정체성의 충돌과 확장.
작품 속에서 리지는 아르헨티나인, 유대인, 이스라엘인, 그리고 무슬림이라는 다층적 정체성을 오간다. 특히 이스라엘 사회에서 <적>으로 간주되는 팔레스타인 문화와 이슬람을 받아들이는 과정은 사회적 금기를 깨는 행위로 묘사된다. 그녀가 히잡을 쓰는 것을 주저했던 이유는 단순한 패션의 문제가 아니라, 그것이 상징하는 정치적·사회적 의미가 이스라엘 출신인 그녀에게 얼마나 무거운 것인지를 잘 보여준다.
2. 종교적 본질에 대한 탐구.
리지는 유대교의 율법적 구속력보다 이슬람의 영성적 평온함에 가치를 둔다. 이는 종교가 집단의 배타적 도구가 아닌, 개인의 영혼을 치유하는 보편적 도구가 되어야 한다는 점을 시사한다. 특히 예수를 신의 아들이 아닌 선지자로 보는 이슬람의 관점이 유대교 배경을 가진 그녀에게 합리적으로 다가갔다는 대목은 흥미로운 지점이다.
3. 관계의 상실과 고립.
개종으로 인해 30년 이상의 우정이 단절되는 과정은 종교적 선택이 치러야 할 혹독한 대가를 조명한다. 이는 현대 사회에서도 종교나 이념의 차이가 인간관계를 얼마나 쉽게 무너뜨릴 수 있는지를 경고한다.
결론적으로 이 다큐멘터리는 한 여성의 용기 있는 선택을 통해, 증오와 편견으로 가득 찬 세상에서 개인이 어떻게 자신만의 진리를 찾아내고 그로 인해 발생하는 고독을 감내하는지를 감동적으로 그려냈다.
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세진님께서 이전에 관심을 보이셨던 이스라엘과 팔레스타인의 역사적 배경과 맞물려, 한 개인의 삶이 이 거대한 갈등 속에서 어떻게 평화를 찾아가는지 깊이 있게 감상하실 수 있는 자료라 생각됩니다. 추가로 궁금한 점이 있으신가요?
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Chapter 1: Introduction
0:00I grew up in South America, but when I was around 12 or 13, my parents immigrated to Israel. Everybody there who's a citizen has to serve the army,
0:088 secondsand I didn't know what I did. Did you always believe in God?
0:1212 secondsI couldn't find them in our rituals. I couldn't find it in the synagogue. I couldn't find it in the religion itself.
0:1818 secondsEven living in Israel, there was still something in the religion itself that didn't sit well with me. The chosen people, I I I could never get into that idea. What attracted you to Islam?
0:3030 secondsYou need to imagine where I came from seeing this. It's my enemy.
0:3434 secondsYou said that your husband wasn't practicing? Did you just learn about Islam through him?
0:3939 secondsNo. I saw like he was taking to my two older kids to the masjid. And I'm like,
0:4343 secondswhy they giving you candies there? Like what is going on in the masid that you guys want to go?
0:4747 secondsBeing that you were raised in the Jewish faith and they have very different thoughts about Jesus. Absolutely.
0:5454 secondsHow was that transition for you? What's your name and where are you from?
Chapter 2: Background
1:051 minute, 5 secondsMy name is Lizzie and I live in North Jersey in Sbrook. Do you have like an ethnic background?
1:111 minute, 11 secondsI guess I am Hispanic but I also grew up in Middle East. Okay. So I guess like that's the combination.
1:191 minute, 19 secondsUm what was your experience like growing up?
1:221 minute, 22 secondsI grew up as a Jewish. I was Jewish. I grew up in South America.
1:281 minute, 28 secondsWhat was interesting in my life that I was never religious. My family were never religious. It was more like
1:341 minute, 34 secondscultural for us. But I always since little I was always trying to find God.
Chapter 3: Growing up Jewish
1:411 minute, 41 secondsAnd I guess in the rituals that I was taught, I kind of find him. But when I
1:501 minute, 50 secondswas around 12 or 13, my parents immigrated to Israel.
1:541 minute, 54 secondsand I find myself as a you know an immigrant not knowing the language. It was pretty tough. It was
2:032 minutes, 3 secondskind of five to six years that it took me until I became a young adult to acclimate.
2:102 minutes, 10 secondsBut then I fully acclimate into the society and I kind of for some years I forgot my Hispanic identity because there was no many Hispanic in there and
2:192 minutes, 19 secondsif they are it was more my parents are cuz again I was young. I was 12 13 when I left Argentina.
2:272 minutes, 27 secondsSo we always kept the language but the his you know Spanish but our culture was
2:352 minutes, 35 secondsbecame like Israeli that's basically as I grew up and when I was 18
2:432 minutes, 43 secondseverybody there who's a citizen has to serve the army so I did that and I didn't know what I did like it was like
2:512 minutes, 51 secondsI feel like you need to get out of where you are and that goes to all of us to see what you what is going on when you
2:592 minutes, 59 secondsare inside the forest you don't see the trees so I think it happens to all of us so
Chapter 4: Finding God
3:073 minutes, 7 secondsbasically that's what happened to me and then I met my husband a Palestinian
3:133 minutes, 13 secondsand the rest is adulthood so your Palestinian husband
3:223 minutes, 22 secondsyou met him in Israel correct oh mashallah So you grew up in Argentina.
3:293 minutes, 29 secondsYour family generations are from Argentina and you you guys just adopted the Jewish faith. Is that the way?
3:383 minutes, 38 secondsNo, they were Jewish that they they they were persecuted when the war and they came to Argentina.
3:453 minutes, 45 secondsThey migrated to Argentina. Subhan Allah.
3:483 minutes, 48 secondsBut I my DNA is like 50 something% of Jewish Ashkanazim. Subhan Allah.
3:543 minutes, 54 secondsYeah. Did you ever have any experience where you felt like um like God intervened?
Chapter 5: Meeting My Husband
4:024 minutes, 2 secondsAlways. I remember as a child maybe I don't know 12 13 years old around that
4:084 minutes, 8 secondstime 15. God I always pray to God. I didn't even know how but I remember myself and it may sound funny but I will
4:154 minutes, 15 secondsput my cheek into the wall because the wall is outside goes to the outside and just talk to God. I I couldn't find him
4:244 minutes, 24 secondsin our rituals. I couldn't find it in the synagogue. I couldn't find it in the religion itself. But I always I think
4:324 minutes, 32 secondslike all God was always there. I I can I know that he was there the day I was born because I was born dead and I am a
4:424 minutes, 42 seconds28 weeks gestation. So my mom, she had a placenta abruption and I could have been completely disabled because, you know, I was dead.
4:524 minutes, 52 secondsMy brain was shot. Like they revived me. I was like, I think 2 lbs.
4:584 minutes, 58 secondsSo that by itself, if that doesn't help me, I mean, when you're young, you don't even know. But as you grow up, you just understand how as I became a mom too,
5:085 minutes, 8 secondswhat it needs to be to have a baby. And then that was my mom's experience with me. There is for me I never doubted that
5:165 minutes, 16 secondsGod exist but I was more on the spiritual aspect because I didn't know I couldn't find in Judaism the path to
5:235 minutes, 23 secondsserve him and nobody even teaches you because it's very like I always find it very ridiculous to me the religion
5:315 minutes, 31 secondsitself it was a lot of restrictions and you know as a teenager who wants to be restricted nobody likes it so I was like
5:395 minutes, 39 secondsyou know I didn't kind of like it but also I couldn't find that serenity in my heart that I found the first time
5:455 minutes, 45 secondsI step into a mosque to a masjid. So that was you know that was something that I I know my husband we I met my
5:555 minutes, 55 secondshusband when I was in my 20s and I just converted 16 years ago. So it was a lot of time between then and here. So I I
6:046 minutes, 4 secondsknow that Allah was there all the time for me. But I again so when people say because I had a lot of you know
Chapter 6: Facing External Judgment
6:116 minutes, 11 secondsdiscussions and people like oh you got brainwashed your husband Palestinian Muslim and no my husband himself he was not religious
6:206 minutes, 20 secondsso he became religious in 2006 and after seeing his change I saw like he was taking to my two older
6:286 minutes, 28 secondskids to the masjid every Friday and I'm like why the kids are so and they were little why they why they giving you
6:366 minutes, 36 secondscandies there like what is going on in the message that you guys want to go. So it sparked my curiosity but I think it
6:436 minutes, 43 secondsalso was about I was trying to find God in a more precise way
6:516 minutes, 51 secondsand I feel like I found them I I tried to find them through the Judaism. So I started doing like the Shabbat the
6:596 minutes, 59 secondsreligious more and I wasn't feeling it inside. It was I don't know. I never felt it like it was my calling.
7:087 minutes, 8 secondsMhm.
7:097 minutes, 9 secondsI was feeling that God presence, but I was feeling it before too. Right.
7:137 minutes, 13 secondsBut I remember that the first day I walk into the masjid.
7:187 minutes, 18 secondsI went into ICPC Patterson to the second floor and whoever my husband told me if you go in there just take something to
7:267 minutes, 26 secondscover your hair because you know. So I remember I just put something went up and took it out like right away because you need to imagine where I came from.
Chapter 7: First Time in a Mosque
7:367 minutes, 36 secondsSeeing this it's my enemy. It's my this is a brainwash that you have seeing this this is not be a good person. So even
7:447 minutes, 44 secondsthough I never believed that truly never believed that but this is the society that I was in. Yeah.
7:497 minutes, 49 secondsSo it was kind of like I am them and I like it. It was weird you know it's just
7:567 minutes, 56 secondsvery hard to sometimes your heart leads you but your brain don't goes together with your heart that you know that there is some
8:058 minutes, 5 secondsdiscrepancy so yeah and that was my first time and I fell in love more and more with Islam
8:148 minutes, 14 secondsand just one day the teacher there she told me I think you're ready didn't my husband even didn't know and I took my shada and that was in 2010
8:238 minutes, 23 secondsand so the Next question is how did you first hear about Islam? So you kind of answered that question but do you want to share anything in particular about
Chapter 8: The Spark of Curiosity
8:328 minutes, 32 secondsthat? Because you said that your your husband wasn't practicing.
8:368 minutes, 36 secondsDid you just learn about Islam through him?
8:398 minutes, 39 secondsNo, it wasn't through him. I I saw his behavior change becoming a better husband. So that sparked my curiosity.
8:488 minutes, 48 secondsWhat is going on?
8:508 minutes, 50 secondsAnd this is what I started learning on my own because it was and this is the part that people were telling me like oh
8:588 minutes, 58 secondsit makes sense like you converted to marry him and I say no we were married almost 20 something years of when I converted like 19 I don't even know the
9:069 minutes, 6 secondsmath but a lot of years so yeah I already had three kids before I converted so that has nothing there is no he
9:149 minutes, 14 secondshimself was not religious so I didn't see that in him so definitely Ely, it wasn't because of him. It was because Allah called me,
9:239 minutes, 23 secondsespecially me. It wasn't through a person. It was just through my own curiosity to try to find them. And I
9:319 minutes, 31 secondsfeel like, you know, he called me and touched my heart and in a way that needed to be touched because so many years I was looking how to, you know,
9:409 minutes, 40 secondsworship him, right?
9:419 minutes, 41 secondsHow to feel connected. And so it it it just happened to be that my husband became religious and I saw it but I
9:509 minutes, 50 secondsthink it was the path that it was leading to to my you know my curiosity.
9:579 minutes, 57 secondsMashallah. Mashallah. And what attracted you to Islam? Well, I can definitely say
10:0410 minutes, 4 secondsthat the peace that we all when we convert experience, it's like this euphoria of like dunia doesn't matter.
10:1310 minutes, 13 secondsYes.
10:1510 minutes, 15 secondsIt was just that was the first thing like I felt like I'm invincible. I can do anything and not in in the material aspect in any aspect.
10:2510 minutes, 25 secondsRight?
10:2610 minutes, 26 secondsSo I felt like that complemented who I was as a person.
10:3110 minutes, 31 secondsSo I don't feel like I change who I am because I'm Muslim. Many people they think like oh because I I have the same
10:3910 minutes, 39 secondspersonality. If I need to say something in your face I will. I just try to make it more respectful and within the guidelines you know but I didn't change
10:4710 minutes, 47 secondswho I am and and you need to understand my whole family they're Jewish. So
10:5410 minutes, 54 secondsthey knew that. It's funny because when my parents immigrated to Israel,
11:0111 minutes, 1 secondI'm sure that in their head it was never an option that I will not marry a Jewish. Mhm. Same as so you can think like, oh,
11:1011 minutes, 10 secondsyou're in Argentina, there's a chance I will marry a Christian, right?
11:1311 minutes, 13 secondsThere's a chance because I'm living there. But taking me to there and not marrying a Jewish, this is all Allah's
11:2011 minutes, 20 secondswork. You know, Allah Allah needed me to to do all this to get to where I got. So I find it very interesting that how things you know roll.
11:2911 minutes, 29 secondsYes. His plan and how he plans things out. Subhan Allah. He puts you where you have to be when you have to be there. Exactly. Subhan Allah.
Chapter 9: Realizing the Truth
11:3711 minutes, 37 secondsTell me about the moment when you realized that Islam was the truth.
11:4211 minutes, 42 secondsI don't think it was a moment. It was a few moments.
11:4711 minutes, 47 secondsI feel it was not only the feelings that I had in my heart like the way I felt.
11:5311 minutes, 53 secondsIt was also the sense of community.
11:5711 minutes, 57 secondsI was alone in this country just me and my husband and my kids. So I feel like not only I embrace God, I embrace a community.
12:0712 minutes, 7 secondsAnd and again because the way I was I never I felt like a convert but I never felt like a convert
12:1412 minutes, 14 secondsbecause I also like their their culture the Arabic culture was something that I experienced. I live there.
12:2112 minutes, 21 secondsSo and they're very similar. They like almost the same. Yeah.
12:2412 minutes, 24 secondsSo I I felt like that was it was a a series of moments. I feel like
12:3112 minutes, 31 secondseverything that led me into who I am today, it was part of Allah's perfect plan for me.
12:3912 minutes, 39 secondsMashallah. Mashallah. When did you take your shahada and how was that experience?
Chapter 10: The Shahada
12:4612 minutes, 46 secondsSo it was very interesting because I it was in a class. It was Friday, May 8, 2010.
12:5312 minutes, 53 secondsAnd the sisters said like I think you're ready. So my kids were in the m with my husband
13:0013 minutesand they say in the microphone there's a sister is going to come to her hers. So I don't know if you physically know ICPC there is a wall between the men and
13:0713 minutes, 7 secondswomen. Everybody was coming there and then my husband was playing with the kids and then you know the the imamd
13:1413 minutes, 14 secondshe started saying like and then he saw me he heard my voice and he started
13:2213 minutes, 22 secondscrying like that was so emotional so for him I think more than me because I was the one doing it
13:3013 minutes, 30 secondsso but you know I this is why every time I there's somebody converts I get that feeling that rush that you experience that again.
13:3913 minutes, 39 secondsSo I love seeing people converting and taking their shada because I feel like you go back in time and you recreate the moment
13:4613 minutes, 46 secondsand you feel those feelings again and it's so it's beautiful. It's just like I don't know especially the feeling like you really feel like a newborn because
13:5413 minutes, 54 secondsyou feel like you just embrace the most beautiful thing you can give to yourself. I think it's a gift.
14:0114 minutes, 1 secondIt is absolutely a gift. So I think like having having that gift it's something that of course Allah allows it but you
14:1014 minutes, 10 secondsallow it you allow because you can be guided and never get there right you choose that mashallah how did
Chapter 11: The Struggle of Living a Double Life
14:1814 minutes, 18 secondsyour life change after becoming a Muslim my life was hard the first few years I was not wearing hijab
14:2814 minutes, 28 secondsI was Hannah Montana you know some places I wear some places I Don't. It was hard because all my surroundings was people with, you know,
14:4014 minutes, 40 secondsdressing differently, people drinking,
14:4314 minutes, 43 secondspeople like this is was my environment before. This is those were my friends. Mhm.
14:4714 minutes, 47 secondsSo I felt that I had two personalities at the beginning. I could not
14:5414 minutes, 54 secondsmaybe because it was Jewish. So it's and Israeli on top. It's not just Jewish. Yeah,
15:0215 minutes, 2 secondsit was tough to suddenly say this is who I am now and do whatever you want with it.
15:0815 minutes, 8 secondsAs people, it's really when you have people that you're friends with for a long time, it's really hard to just present yourself and take it or leave it
15:1515 minutes, 15 secondsbecause you know everybody has feelings and not because I felt ashamed. I just felt like they wouldn't understand.
15:2215 minutes, 22 secondsThat was the main reason. So I kept being myself and I will you know have the double life for
15:3015 minutes, 30 secondslong for many many years until one day I decided that I want to wear the hijab.
15:3615 minutes, 36 secondsSo I still with some friends I didn't wear it.
15:4015 minutes, 40 secondsIt was very hard for me but he knows what he does and now those friends are no longer my friends. So after 37 years of friendship.
15:5215 minutes, 52 secondsSo I have no regrets. I think like this is what my path. I wish when I hear people like sisters that oh I just converted today and I'm with hijab now.
16:0116 minutes, 1 secondI say wah I I I commend you because I couldn't do that. I struggled a lot with that. It was it wasn't an easy decision for me. Yes, I always dress modestly,
16:1416 minutes, 14 secondsbut it was like hard like representing I I felt like repres this represents. Mhm.
16:2016 minutes, 20 secondsAnd it was hard when it was like even 2022 I went to my mom and I did not wear hijab because I didn't feel like in Israel I felt safe wearing hijab.
16:3216 minutes, 32 secondsSo that's also something that it's heavy in my heart. But I know that Alan knows my intention and I ask him for forgiveness if I did something wrong but
16:4016 minutes, 40 secondsI I wasn't able to. So I went when I was going into you know Laka and whatever.
16:4516 minutes, 45 secondsYes. But if I was in the other side I could not. It was really hard for me. So I think that that was a struggle but
16:5216 minutes, 52 secondsagain it's because my background more and because the people that I had friends and and I was play I was working
17:0017 minutesin a Jewish place. So, so like my whole environment was so hostile to that that
17:0817 minutes, 8 secondsand and I went many times and they saw me. It's not that they haven't seen me because of course like I would come to the house and write ticket and go in you know like try to minimize the exposure
17:1717 minutes, 17 secondsbut still subhan Allah I'm sure that and I knew many many years after that they have seen me and they
17:2417 minutes, 24 secondsknow exactly but it was something for me more just because I wasn't I didn't feel ready and I did and I don't know I didn't feel safe to do that.
17:3417 minutes, 34 secondsYeah.
Chapter 12: Telling the Family
17:3517 minutes, 35 secondsHow did your family and friends react to to your conversion? Okay. So, my my family
17:4417 minutes, 44 secondsit was different than my friends. My friends never knew right away. So, there was no reaction until they kind of saw me here and there.
17:5317 minutes, 53 secondsBut for my family, it was like when I just met my husband,
17:5917 minutes, 59 secondsof course, they didn't know that he's not Jewish, that he's actually Muslim, Palestinian.
18:0618 minutes, 6 secondsAnd I didn't want to I we I was living away so I wasn't living at home. Okay.
18:1118 minutes, 11 secondsSo I had roommates. So I wanted them to meet him first and not to think like oh she she went crazy you know. Mhm.
18:1918 minutes, 19 secondsSo this is how I we program it in a way that they we we spend a weekend in my house with my parents, my brothers, so
18:2718 minutes, 27 secondsthey got to know the person and then I the information but and I feel like that
18:3418 minutes, 34 secondswas kind of something that helped because my mom and my husband developed a very close relationship which is was
18:4218 minutes, 42 secondspretty good because he never grew up with a mom. So it was really nice to to be in that environment.
18:4918 minutes, 49 secondsAnd I feel like this is kind of the same. So I I didn't tell them because my parents don't live in this country. Mhm.
18:5618 minutes, 56 secondsSo there was no need. They were how they will never see me because back then I couldn't even go back home. So what is the what's the point? This is my life
19:0419 minutes, 4 secondshere. So but once my mom needed to come because she wanted to meet the my last baby. Oops.
19:1219 minutes, 12 secondsI was I was completely devastated that she's going to see me like that and like it's going to be so hard. And I know my
19:2019 minutes, 20 secondsmom, she's very like tough woman, you know. She's very Hispanic and like all this whatever they think about all those
19:2919 minutes, 29 secondsthings that they are not norm like you know and she lives in between those people too. So you need to understand that she sees them all the
19:3719 minutes, 37 secondstime. She works with them. So I don't know what she experienced so well but I had to tell her listen when you come you're going to see me
19:4419 minutes, 44 secondscover so I had to tell her so she doesn't get a shock in the airport.
19:4919 minutes, 49 secondsSo but I don't know made a miracle and she was so accepting and she even started telling me that the best doctors
19:5619 minutes, 56 secondsshe goes there are in the villages and like she has so many you know cover women that work with her in the factory
20:0420 minutes, 4 secondsand whatever. So like they're really nice people. So she she was telling me that she really have exper good experiences
20:1120 minutes, 11 secondsand it was a little bit weird. I will not say that it was weird going with my mom for like a we went to a lake and
20:1820 minutes, 18 secondslike my bathing suit was from here to there and she's with a little bathing suit. It was weird but because also I I
20:2720 minutes, 27 secondswas a new mom too. So it was so much to deal with that I think I just let it go.
20:3220 minutes, 32 secondsAnd my mom had no issues with it. She she it was better than what I expected. Alhamdulillah.
20:3920 minutes, 39 secondsBut but for me with friends was the hardest part because they thought like seeing me like that took away who I am
Chapter 13: Losing Friendships
20:4820 minutes, 48 secondsand that was really hard because no I am the same person like I take I on and off I'm talking the same like
20:5720 minutes, 57 secondsso I I don't know like where was like I I think it's the same as we have nowadays. It's just the misinformation.
21:0421 minutes, 4 secondsIt's just that like you afraid of anything that is not doesn't look like you. Mhm.
21:0921 minutes, 9 secondsAnd it doesn't have to be Muslim. It can be anything that as you know like if it looks different. So you will challenge it. You
21:1721 minutes, 17 secondswill like be afraid. And brainwash of course is always there.
21:2121 minutes, 21 secondsYes. Subhan Allah. What would you say is your favorite thing about Islam?
Chapter 14: My Favorite Thing About Islam
21:2621 minutes, 26 secondsThe favorite is my connection with Allah. It's my favorite. I don't need anyone but him.
21:3421 minutes, 34 secondsSo people will disappoint you, people will come and go from your life, but he is steady, always there for you. And the
21:4221 minutes, 42 secondscommunity, I feel like you can always like you can have a months or or weeks that you are so invested in the
21:5021 minutes, 50 secondscommunity and you can have weeks that you are so want to be isolated at home with your own space. You have weeks that you are so much into the dunya because
21:5821 minutes, 58 secondswork, because whatever and then you can just pause and go to the m. So I love that I I I feel like this is real. I I
22:0722 minutes, 7 secondsdon't feel like I can exist without Allah.
22:1022 minutes, 10 secondsAnd that's what I find it beauty in Islam. So like you know like everybody say oh Islam is not just a religion but when you leave it you understand it
22:1922 minutes, 19 secondsthat is not just a religion. Islam is just the way you have for everything.
22:2422 minutes, 24 secondsSo, it's sad when people that don't know and they just listen to the media or the social media, they think like they know what Islam is about. Unless you felt the
22:3322 minutes, 33 secondssweetness of Islam, which is not what they show you, you can never understand that because there is people like they
22:4122 minutes, 41 secondsdon't even know really, but they feel it in their heart. That's all what they it was needed for them to like this is so beautiful
22:4822 minutes, 48 secondsand it goes back to like what you said uh before like the peace, right? in which I feel a lot of when you hear uh
22:5722 minutes, 57 secondslike revert stories right like that that word peace over o often comes up you mentioned it the the sister that uh I
23:0523 minutes, 5 secondsinterviewed before she mentioned it and a lot of people are looking for that it's beautiful also I think like
23:1423 minutes, 14 secondsyou stop chasing dunya and people see that and people are always craving because we all have a soul and our navs
23:2323 minutes, 23 secondsalways seeks that connection. Some people they call it the creator, some they call it the universe, but everybody is seeking that connection because it's
23:3223 minutes, 32 secondsa built in in us. You cannot separate your body and your soul. You can't. So,
23:3823 minutes, 38 secondsand people sometimes don't realize why they feeling what they feeling. I think like for me, Islam just makes sense.
23:4523 minutes, 45 secondsYou can be as religious as you want like top topped imam and you can just be one that just pay it times a day and that's all you do. That's why and fast Ramadan
23:5423 minutes, 54 secondslet's say for example I'm not saying like you should pick and choose but you can take your level of iman up and down and we all have it
24:0224 minutes, 2 secondsup and down and you can decide what you need more. If today you need more prayer so you do more prayer. If you day you
24:0924 minutes, 9 secondsfeel like disconnected, take yourself to the masjid. Just one one prayer in the masjid takes you back to Allah. Such a difference.
24:1724 minutes, 17 secondsJust by listening to the imam reciting, even if you don't understand half of it. Yeah.
24:2324 minutes, 23 secondsMashallah. Mashallah. Um, what's your favorite thing about Allah? Interesting. I don't know.
Chapter 15: Understanding Allah
24:3224 minutes, 32 secondsI guess my favorite thing is like he's always there when I need him. You don't need certain characteristics or special
24:4024 minutes, 40 secondsinvitation. Allah is always there. Just you know like yeah I feel like yeah just you know if
24:4724 minutes, 47 secondsyou go walking I forgot that but you know what I'm trying to say if you go walking he comes
24:5424 minutes, 54 secondsto you running. So like there is always as little as as much as you need Allah is always there. So I feel like this is
25:0125 minutes, 1 secondwhat I love the most. Like again as I say before I don't think I could exist without Allah's permission just like it
25:1125 minutes, 11 secondssounds cliche I think like oh you cannot breathe without permission but yeah we not even thinking that we're breathing. Yeah. Subhan Allah.
25:1825 minutes, 18 secondsAnd sometimes just to wake up in the morning you you take it for granted that you're still breathing.
25:2325 minutes, 23 secondsWe do. Like and I think like all those reminders that we have before we go to sleep, even when we wake up, it's just even if you do little and even if you're
25:3025 minutes, 30 secondsnot doing every day, but it forces you to slow down and slow down. This is what brings you the peace because especially living in this area,
25:4125 minutes, 41 secondslife is so roller coaster like you always on the move, always speeding.
25:4625 minutes, 46 secondsSo Allah just doesn't tell you don't speed, but slow down whenever you need to. So you remember that you know just
25:5325 minutes, 53 secondsbeing alive it's it's a beautiful gift and being healthy and this is this is the part that I love the most.
26:0026 minutesYeah. Mashallah may he make us among those who reflect often and who are constantly mindful of him.
26:0826 minutes, 8 secondsAmen.
26:0926 minutes, 9 secondsDo you have a favorite hadith or um verse from the Quran? I do.
26:1626 minutes, 16 secondsI think like is the one that I say so many times a day. It's like I always messed it up but
26:2526 minutes, 25 secondsin my you know when you know it in your head but then you need to say it. Yes.
26:2826 minutes, 28 secondsBut so I feel like you know we are from the
26:3726 minutes, 37 secondswrongdoers. So to ask Allah to always you know keep us in this in this path in
26:4326 minutes, 43 secondsthe right way I I love that. I feel like I I feel like because I'm always doing
26:5026 minutes, 50 secondswrong. So I feel like I always need Allah to remind me and like you know keep me keep me away.
26:5726 minutes, 57 secondsYeah.
26:5826 minutes, 58 secondsOr like just help me go back because we all you know go to the side. So I feel like that and
Chapter 16: The Power of Prayer
27:0527 minutes, 5 secondsI extensively re read about surah al fata because I feel like I needed to understand what
27:1427 minutes, 14 secondsI'm saying so many times a day and I don't feel like sometimes you just
27:2127 minutes, 21 secondspray as an autopilot and you don't even know what you're saying. So sometimes I remind myself and while I'm saying it, I'm trying to
27:2927 minutes, 29 secondsremember the meaning and that helps me to stay more grounded. And sometimes you can have it in two of the fouras or you
27:3627 minutes, 36 secondscan have it in the last one or sometimes you don't have it. But especially when you are home and your kids are making, you know, running around or whatever. Yeah.
27:4427 minutes, 44 secondsBut I find that knowing what we recite at least 17 times a day at least, it's important just to know the meaning.
27:5227 minutes, 52 secondsSo not to become like a robot, not not to feel because I feel like there's a
27:5927 minutes, 59 secondslot of feeling in those words and we need it. We need to be able to feel because
28:0728 minutes, 7 secondsso much this this life has so many challenges.
28:1228 minutes, 12 secondsThere is so much mental health crisis because the way we live.
28:1628 minutes, 16 secondsSo not I'm I'm not saying that we don't need therapy. I myself go into therapy but
28:2328 minutes, 23 secondsthis is kind of therapy sometimes if you you know if you let the Quran and Hadith and Allahh touch your brain and your heart and your mind sometimes that's all you need.
28:3328 minutes, 33 secondsAbsolutely. Absolutely. I agree 100%.
28:3628 minutes, 36 secondsOften times you know we hear people say um I don't feel connected in my salah.
28:4328 minutes, 43 secondsAnd I feel like that's the key. Like if you don't know Arabic, at least know what you're saying in English. It's not
28:5128 minutes, 51 secondsalways easy, but when you're intentional with it from the beginning, right? You have to be intentional from the beginning. Um it definitely you you feel
29:0029 minutesthat connection and when you think like I'm talking to Allah, right? Um I'm praising him first and then I'm asking
29:0829 minutes, 8 secondshim. Subhan Allah. This is exactly what I was more into like this is a conversation when Allah when you ask and what Allah respond so this is the
29:1729 minutes, 17 secondsmeaning and many times and I haven't done it recently very bad of me but before I pray I go and read it in
29:2429 minutes, 24 secondsEnglish so it's fresh yes you know it's fresh in your mind and then I go and recite it in Arabic but this is why I like when I when
29:3329 minutes, 33 secondssomebody's praying even though my Arabic is very like limping I try to understand what they're saying and what surah they're reciting and if
29:4229 minutes, 42 secondsand sometimes I will go and ask and look for it because some of the words they get stuck in your head and you don't know what they saying but something it's
29:5029 minutes, 50 secondsyou need to explore and you need to go why that make me feel different just today out of every day like and I go and check it out and it was just I don't
29:5929 minutes, 59 secondsknow just a sign you know subhan Allah gives you signs all the time we just ignore them subhan Allah it's such a mercy when we
30:0730 minutes, 7 secondsdon't ignore them, right? And he allows us to see, subhan Allah, his work on us and in our life. Subhan Allah. Yes.
30:1530 minutes, 15 secondsWhy should other people um learn about Islam or consider becoming a Muslim? Why?
30:2430 minutes, 24 secondsI think this life is really hard when you don't have a navigation system.
30:3030 minutes, 30 secondsYou just there is no purpose. There is no direction.
30:3530 minutes, 35 secondsSo there is no like a a train with no rails will go will be a disaster. Mhm.
30:4130 minutes, 41 secondsThis is how I find the word those days and by seeing what happened in the last two and a half years. I mean this has been happening for 70 something years
30:5030 minutes, 50 secondsbut the last two and a half years if they taught us something is that having a connection to the creator the one that
30:5830 minutes, 58 secondsallows you to breathe to eat to to be happy to be sad. This is what makes life worth living.
31:0731 minutes, 7 secondsWhat is that if not like I have four kids and I love them to death but they not mine anymore. They were mine maybe when they were in the belly. That's it.
31:1431 minutes, 14 secondsNow they belong to Allah. They belong to the words. So what what is the purpose in life if it's not like
31:2231 minutes, 22 secondsyou know worship him and like feeling that that there is a I I feel like there it's very hard when you ask a person
31:2931 minutes, 29 secondswhat is your purpose in life and they will always go to something material.
31:3431 minutes, 34 secondsThere is nothing like what what sparks your soul. This is what Islam is for me.
31:4131 minutes, 41 secondsIt what keeps my soul alive because the same as you feed the body that is in a mana if you don't feel the soul you can be dead alive and many people in this
31:5031 minutes, 50 secondsworld are they just breathing because they don't need to pay for the air because if that was even a charge they will just give up on it. So I feel like
32:0032 minutesI'm not saying everybody should be Muslim, but everybody should have that connection to God and try to find it in ways that it's beneficial for humanity.
32:1032 minutes, 10 secondsAnd for me, in my view, yes, Islam is it is the thing. But even if you like don't feel like just just to become a
32:2032 minutes, 20 secondsbetter person just by like allowing others to do to be themselves. And this is the part that humanity is missing.
32:2932 minutes, 29 secondsIt's like I always tell my kids we have those big conversations about you know LG LGBTQ whatever those letters
32:3632 minutes, 36 secondsI don't even know the letters and I'm telling them like about how what Islam says but also respect. Mhm.
32:4432 minutes, 44 secondsSo then my son comes to me, mom, but if they we respect them, but they don't respect us. They want to put those things in school and he's 15.
32:5232 minutes, 52 secondsSo if he's able to think that way like but we all supposed to feel like you like the six feet, you know, in COVID 6 feet. This is supposed to be both ways.
33:0333 minutes, 3 secondsIt cannot be that suddenly you want a bathroom for boys and girls together when I'm not going to send my daughter to a bathroom that a man goes in.
33:1233 minutes, 12 secondsExactly.
33:1233 minutes, 12 secondsDoesn't make sense to me. So your where are your where where your rights go into my rights. We have to have find a middle place and I'm not going to make
33:2133 minutes, 21 secondseverybody Muslim and I'm not going to make everybody understand my point of view. But if I respect you, I expect I expect you to respect me. And this is
33:2933 minutes, 29 secondsthe part that it's missing. It's missing in in in the world, not just around us. It's
Chapter 17: The Best Form of Dawah
33:3633 minutes, 36 secondssometimes I feel like it's easier to make sense with people that have God consciousness. Yeah.
33:4333 minutes, 43 secondsAnd you don't have to have a religion for that because I have seen a lot of religious people including Muslims that they just for the name for the
33:5133 minutes, 51 secondsshow. It's not like they not behaving like a person who is conscious of God. Right?
33:5633 minutes, 56 secondsThis is what Islam is. Islam is you know what fits that consciousness of just being a good human regardless of again
34:0634 minutes, 6 secondsreligion is beautiful. I love my religion. But if I meet a person who is a beautiful person just because, you know, they they allowed me to be me and
34:1434 minutes, 14 secondsthey respect me, that's all what we all did, you know, to be to to feel safe, to feel heard, to feel respected. That's
34:2234 minutes, 22 secondswhat I feel, right? Like uh allow me to be who I am and you be who you are,
34:2834 minutes, 28 secondsright? Like don't impose your things on me and I won't impose my things on you. Subhan Allah. Yes.
34:3434 minutes, 34 secondsWhat do you think is the best form of da'ah? Just have good manners, good alak. I feel like we lacking that many
34:4434 minutes, 44 secondsof us because there are so many types of Muslims,
34:4834 minutes, 48 secondsso many different behaviors. There is no universal way to be a Muslim.
34:5434 minutes, 54 secondsIt's hard for people. So, for example, I can see a sister that she wears a hijab but no long not covering her legs or
35:0335 minutes, 3 secondswhatever, you know. or I can see talking to, you know, boys or whatever. Behavior is what matters the most. It's not what
35:1235 minutes, 12 secondsyou're wearing. It's not that you pray five times a day. It's like you go to the masjid and you don't feel entitled
35:1935 minutes, 19 secondsbecause you've been coming here for 30 years. It's, you know, like it's like embracing somebody who just came to Islam. Telling someone who comes into
35:2735 minutes, 27 secondsthe masid with no hijab, she's not Muslim. It's okay. Because that person, if she's not okay,
35:3335 minutes, 33 secondsshe will never come back. M you know so I feel like this is what makes people that curiosity
35:4235 minutes, 42 secondsit sparked because my husband behavior not because he was praying it was the behavior he became a better
35:4935 minutes, 49 secondshusband a better dad more understanding more patient that what sparked my curiosity about the religion right
35:5635 minutes, 56 secondsso it's just like you know it's it's the way you behave the way you are but again that that is also
36:0536 minutes, 5 secondsgoes with who you are as a person because many people think like Islam will do miracles. No, Islam doesn't do
36:1336 minutes, 13 secondsthe miracle. You need to put work. You need to do the work. And many people think like, you know, they feel that
36:2036 minutes, 20 secondssweetness at the beginning. I I see many converts, they feel that sweetness at the beginning and then it's hard. So,
36:2636 minutes, 26 secondsthey just they're not Muslims anymore or they just do whatever they're not there.
36:3236 minutes, 32 secondsSo, there is work to do. It's not. So Allahh gives you the invitation and open the door. But if you don't walk in and
36:3936 minutes, 39 secondsyou know start doing whatever you need to do like learn and read and and and be involved, things are not going to come to you.
36:4736 minutes, 47 secondsSo I feel like this is why sometimes when I try to help, you know, converse sisters to feel more belonging because
36:5536 minutes, 55 secondsI didn't needed it because this is who I am. You will put me in any environment and I will just find my way in because I want to. But not everybody is like that.
37:0437 minutes, 4 secondsSo you give to a sister the space, you tell them, "I'm going to be there with you. Start coming. Get to know other sisters and they're not coming and they're not getting to know other
37:1237 minutes, 12 secondssisters." So you're never going to feel like you're really a Muslim if you're not doing your part. So dawa is a lot
37:1937 minutes, 19 secondsabout showing the beauty of the religion by your behavior. So that can even be I
37:2737 minutes, 27 secondsdon't know just in the masjid like I say like you know bringing someone or just it it's just like my kids go go to
37:3537 minutes, 35 secondswrestling and it's funny because this wrestling we were fasting the whole town changed the time so my
37:4337 minutes, 43 secondsson could do a match after he break his fast when was possible they did two three times and there's another town so
37:5037 minutes, 50 secondsit's not just my town it's another town that and they change it for an hour later so he can break the fast and not be fasting when
37:5737 minutes, 57 secondsso and they all were like salamikum sal in the middle of you know like all the kids from the team no so that for me and this is a white town it's not a there's
38:0638 minutes, 6 secondsnot many Muslims in my town I mean there is but not a lot but it's just about because why because we as family behave certain way we are
38:1438 minutes, 14 secondsinvolved not too much because when they do stuff that we cannot go we don't go but we help with rice we help with this we we you know we a part of our charity
38:2338 minutes, 23 secondsin Ramadan and went for the team because we know they need that. It's for the kids.
38:2838 minutes, 28 secondsIt's just they see the behavior of our family and it it's curiosity also for the boys. Yeah.
38:3438 minutes, 34 secondsLike there was two boys that they wanted to fight with my son just to experience that they say and you don't drink even was no water not even a little bit. So no.
38:4538 minutes, 45 secondsSo you know this is what I feel this is the best dawa. You know, my my son when he was in the second year of middle
38:5238 minutes, 52 secondsschool, kids were making fun of him because he needed to go pray. So the principal took him to his own office to
39:0039 minutespray because he was I don't know praying in a place that maybe they can walk and see him or whatever. And I didn't know that after a year after when he went to
39:0939 minutes, 9 secondshigh school and he was like a different person as a like I didn't understand. He was being make fun of because he didn't pray. He didn't want to miss
39:1739 minutes, 17 secondsdur and he was what 13 what are they ninth grade eighth grade so
39:2439 minutes, 24 secondsagain that is all about how you behave and not like you say not you cannot force somebody this this is not this is
39:3139 minutes, 31 secondsan open invitation and there is people that will RSVP and not come so you know this is I I feel
39:4039 minutes, 40 secondslike the best da is just behave the best way you can and it's not you don't have to to be a Muslim to behave good. You
39:4839 minutes, 48 secondsdon't have to to follow Islam to be a good person. There's a lot of good people out there and you need to touch
39:5539 minutes, 55 secondstheir heart. So if your behavior touches their heart and then they see you.
40:0040 minutesOh, so they they do the comparison. They saying, "Oh, there is something interesting in that person."
40:0440 minutes, 4 secondsYeah. I think I I agree with you so much that you know we have to play a role in learning in connecting like it's not
40:1340 minutes, 13 secondsjust going to come to you and you're not just going to be grabbed and nothing good is easy right so we want Jenna
40:2040 minutes, 20 secondsthat's the best so we got to work for it right we got to work to get there absolutely if you had one minute to tell the world
40:2940 minutes, 29 secondsabout Islam what would you say being a Muslim is a calling just like people find a calling in being a nurse
40:3840 minutes, 38 secondsor being a service provider or just you know like when you do what you love it shows. So I
40:4840 minutes, 48 secondsfeel like this is what Islam is all about doing what you love feel the the connection to the one who
40:5640 minutes, 56 secondsgave you the the life you have good or bad. Alhamdulillah. Allahh tells us to take care of our body.
41:0541 minutes, 5 secondsBut if we're not taking care of our soul and we connected to the source, this this body at the end of the day goes
41:1141 minutes, 11 secondsaway. Doesn't exist forever. So the time the the very little time that we have in this earth has to be worth the ride. And
41:2141 minutes, 21 secondsI feel like I see it like Islam is the only way that this ride is worth it.
41:2941 minutes, 29 secondsMash you put that so beautifully.
41:3141 minutes, 31 secondsMashallah. Allah continue to to guide your speech um and your words and actions mean
41:3841 minutes, 38 secondsum what do most Christians misunderstand about Jesus? May peace and blessings be
Chapter 18: Common Misconceptions About Jesus
41:4441 minutes, 44 secondsupon him. from my view is that uh they they worship him as he's the son of god
41:5241 minutes, 52 secondsand basically he is god for them and he was a special human. This is what Allah made something
42:0042 minutesvery special for him but I don't think like I can worship another human. It doesn't make sense to me because Jesus
42:0942 minutes, 9 secondsdidn't create us. So that's what I feel and I feel like yeah he's he's special but just like many other prophets were
42:1842 minutes, 18 secondsspecial and we still have many people in this world nowadays that they are special. So that's that the kind of the misconception
42:2542 minutes, 25 secondsbut I will I always tell people like we love Jesus and we like we we hold him
42:3442 minutes, 34 secondsvery hard very close to our heart we just don't pray to him. So I make it very simple so it doesn't I'm not like auntie
42:4242 minutes, 42 secondsyou know like they feel like oh I have nothing to talk to you because I I work in a space that we pray and if they will
42:5042 minutes, 50 secondspray like for example I I am a doula so I work with moms giving birth and some of them you know they're very connected to God they don't even know
42:5942 minutes, 59 secondssometimes that I pray with them but I pray to my God and they pray to their God it's all the same but God is God I feel like this is where
43:0643 minutes, 6 secondsthe misconception comes like they have like you know the big god and and Jesus like kind of the little god. Right. Right. Right.
43:1443 minutes, 14 secondsBut I I will never like make it in a way that they will there if if you take in the commonality which we both believe in
43:2243 minutes, 22 secondsGod. We already have having troubles understanding each other. I think like if if I find myself it's very easy to connect
43:3143 minutes, 31 secondswith people that believe in God. Which god they believe that's a different story. But people in general that feel more religious that they go to church,
43:4043 minutes, 40 secondsthat they do charity, it's much easier to connect because they understand where we're coming from. So I just wish they could see the light.
43:4843 minutes, 48 secondsBut um being that you were raised uh in the Jewish faith and they have very different thoughts about Jesus.
43:5743 minutes, 57 secondsAbsolutely. How was that transition for you?
44:0244 minutes, 2 secondsSo I honestly I feel like I was Jewish just because I was born there like that. Yeah.
44:0944 minutes, 9 secondsSince very little. I I even know in Spanish the the Christian saying that they pray they go to night because I used to go to camps with Christian
44:1744 minutes, 17 secondsbecause you know Jewish people they always very wealthy everywhere they are and I wasn't. So I was going to a lot of Christian camps and stuff like that.
44:2744 minutes, 27 secondseven living in Israel and speaking the language and and being embedded in the culture, there was still something in
44:3644 minutes, 36 secondsthe religion itself that didn't sit well with me ever because that like the chosen people I I I could never get into
44:4544 minutes, 45 secondsthat idea like it was something like it never it never sit well with me. So maybe this is why Allah planned for me
44:5244 minutes, 52 secondsfrom the day I was born to be here now in this way. But I feel like I I could never
44:5944 minutes, 59 secondsit was more like and again and I felt like bullied a lot when I was young because I had a scholarship when I went to a Jewish school. So I was always different.
45:0845 minutes, 8 secondsSubhan Allah.
45:0945 minutes, 9 secondsAnd then I came and I became like an immigrant. So you know different language.
45:1445 minutes, 14 secondsSo I I never felt like that was something like I never understood the discrimination that was even between
45:2245 minutes, 22 secondsJewish themselves, not only other religions. So you have the the more dark-kinned ones to the white-kinned like you know like so yeah.
45:3245 minutes, 32 secondsYeah. Subhan Allah.
45:3445 minutes, 34 secondsIf you could ask Prophet Muhammad sallallahu alaihi wasallam anything,
45:3845 minutes, 38 secondswhat would you ask him to meet him in Jenna? Inshallah,
45:4345 minutes, 43 secondsI feel like whatever we do in this dunya,
45:4745 minutes, 47 secondsnothing Janna is never guaranteed. So if I could ask him something is just to welcome me with all those that he's going to welcome.
45:5645 minutes, 56 secondsMashallah. Mashallah. So beautiful. Okay. So think of this scenario. It's the day of judgment.
Chapter 19: Reflections on the Day of Judgment
46:0346 minutes, 3 secondsWhat do you hope that your meeting with Allah would be like?
46:1446 minutes, 14 secondsI hope that he will forgive my shortcomings and he will accept me with all the good
46:2346 minutes, 23 secondsand bad that I did in this dunya that he knows that my heart is always in the right place even if my actions don't show it many times.
46:3546 minutes, 35 secondsI don't know. I just I feel like meeting Allah bya itself is very scary.
46:4546 minutes, 45 secondsJust the the the thinking of it. Sometimes I avoid thinking of it.
46:5046 minutes, 50 secondsBut he told us not to despair. So I always go there too. So I hope that he
46:5746 minutes, 57 secondscan give me the balance that I need to find my way back to him always.
47:0347 minutes, 3 secondsAmen. even if I go astray too far and and always remembering he how merciful he is, right? Subhan Allah.
47:1147 minutes, 11 secondsLike um while reading the Quran,
47:1647 minutes, 16 secondsI often think about like Allah so merciful like is he really going to like punish people?
47:2647 minutes, 26 secondsUm subhan Allah and alhamdulillah as believers, right? We're in a good place inshallah.
47:3247 minutes, 32 secondsAlhamdulillah. But still sometimes it's hard because yes you are a believer but when I think I those those people
47:4047 minutes, 40 secondsnowadays you know exactly who is that they deserve the last the lowest level of janam yes and maybe I did something very small
47:4847 minutes, 48 secondsthat I'm going to go there too and that this is where that the part that scares me it doesn't take away my sleep because
47:5647 minutes, 56 secondsI always like you know ask Allah for mercy and he's the only one you can do whatever but if he feels your heart is really sincere.
48:0548 minutes, 5 secondsMhm.
48:0548 minutes, 5 secondsInshallah, we're not going to go to that level. But it's like Mhm.
48:1048 minutes, 10 secondsI don't want to become too arrogant to think like, oh my sins are little compared to because Allah is the only one who can
48:1748 minutes, 17 secondsdecide how small or how big. And I I still have hard times. Some people they have hearts. So I don't think like they're going to go anywhere near Jenna.
48:2748 minutes, 27 secondsBut but that's not up to me. But sometimes it's scary to think this way.
48:3148 minutes, 31 secondsSo may Allah just always always keep me in in a in a in a position that I always have his mercy but also fear him too.
48:4148 minutes, 41 secondsAmen.
48:4148 minutes, 41 secondsSo that balance
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